So this morning we went to the Funeral Home to see the body and I thought I would be fine. But then I noticed that she had her 'Relentless' bracelet on. I ordered our entire family those livestrong like bracelets but they are ones for leukemia. So when I saw the bracelet around her wrist I lost it. It's cool because my entire family has them on, I'm glad I bought them. I wish I was older, its amazing what people do for one another concerning death. My family has got so much support from their friends and work crews and its nice. I wish that people my age understood how to be there for someone through death. Really it doesn't take much... I wouldn't mind a "Hang in There" or a "I'm Praying for You" or "I'm sorry about your loss", but I think people get too scared and I frankly think its crap. I have had some very good friends through this though, as if they haven't always been really good friends. Johnny & Mik have checked on me lots which is such a blessing. And my best friend back home Chels has been great too. Then of course Lexy has been great, I stayed with her last night and tonight. And she took off work tomorrow so that she can go to the funeral which means A LOT to me! But outside of those 4 people everyone else just doesn't know how to react. I did get a text message from Nikki which was nice. And I called Shannon to let her know what had happened. And I'm sure I'll get more support from them once I'm back in Denton. But I have several friends in Lubbock that really haven't done much and its kind of hard to take in. I shouldn't care, but I do. Oh well... Anyway, my Grandma has an online memorial. So check it out, http://www.mem.com/display/Biography.asp?id=1083201

So my Grandma died around 7am this morning. It's kind of weird. The funeral is going to be Wednesday morning which is nice because it will be before Thanksgiving. I'm not so much looking forward to Thanksgiving itself. I'm trying to be positive about it, and while its amazing that my Grandma is now in Heaven. It's just hard to loose someone especially around the holidays. I am glad that I get to be with my entire family for the holidays though, its been awhile since we've done that. So its good. That I am thankful for. Plus I am in Lubbock for the week and my closest friends are all staying the entire week so I get to see my dearest friends. I love it!! Anyway, thats enough update for me...