Wednesday, January 14, 2009

not about me

In small group we often remind each other "you are not that important." Maggie reads this to us from her bible often Galations 6:3 NLT "If you think you are too important to help someone, you are only fooling yourself. You are not that important." It really is a great reminder for us that our problems really just aren't that important. I often find myself sharing something in small group and about mid-way through remembering that it's not about me. For example, last night we were sharing with one another ways in which we need to be more a part of the body. I feel a strong conviction to get over myself and my fear of man and meet new people at church. Again I am reminded that it's really not about me.

Sunday night I was talking with a very dear friend of mine and he reminded me of this. He was telling me that when he's not being self-centered he's happy, but often times when it's about himself he can get struck in a rut of depression. He was reflecting on times in which he had been depressed and remembered it was just about him during those times and he was all he was thinking about. Yet when he directs his attention and his thoughts elsewhere he seems to be happy. I heard what he said and partially agreed. Then last night I laid in my bed stressed out about my current situation. I began to weep because of frustration and because of God's provision. I started to think about myself and what I wasn't experiencing and what I was missing out on. I was sulking in selfishness and honestly I became depressed. I thought about what my friend had told me and started thinking about others.

My situation is far from ideal right now and I'd really prefer not to be in it, but if I would think about someone or something bigger than myself I'd soon forget about my problems. Last night I sat in small group listening to the prayer requests of my sisters and realizing that I'd much rather pray for their needs than my own. I'd much rather see them find the job of their dreams, to see their uncles and cousins come to know the Lord, to see their family protected. I'd much rather see the homeless people we talked about with food in their tummy's and coats on their backs. I'd much rather set myself aside to make sure the person alone at church feels welcomed. If for just a minute I'd stop thinking about all my needs and wants and focus on others I'd be much happier and far more satisfied with my own life.

I have another blog all about my situation and how God's provided for me beyond measure. How much I've grown by depending on him. But today...I don't want to focus on me. It's not about me. What's your prayer requests? What stirring in your heart? Let me pray for you! Fell free to email me your prayer requests.

3 comments:

OperaWife said...

I'm really glad you edited to add the actual scripture, because at first I was going to pleasantly disagree with you. :) I like the verse (and am trotting off in a moment to read other translations), because it's true. We are not too important to help others who are in need.

However, the reason I at first felt compelled to disagree with you was the phrasing of "you are not that important." It just sounds...negative. We are quite important, as are our struggles and our fears and anxieties. I sure hope I misunderstood where I read that you felt like you had to stop sharing something in a small group setting because it's "not about you." If you all felt that way, how would you ever find out what was needed by others so that you could lift each other up?

I don't think I'm saying what I mean to very well, but I guess I'm saying that I like your attitude about not focusing (read: moping) on your own problems when you know you'll feel better when you begin to lift up others. But I'm not sure I agree with telling people "Hey remember...YOU'RE not that important."

Jana said...

It's not that I feel I can't share in my small group. I just realize when I am sharing that my problems are really just not about me and at times just purely selfish.

The you're not that important is just a reminder to me that I am selfish and often put myself above everyone else. I really am not that important.

But don't worry...my next post is about Luke 12 and how God thinks I am that important. Hehe.

Anonymous said...

It's not possible to be depressed when you're helping other people. Their situations can be "depressing" but it's not the type of self-pity thing that most of us get caught up in that drags us down. It's more like the motivating kind that makes us want to do something positive for someone else.