So I forgot that I had posted this picture...I posted it so some people could take a vote on if this sshould be the one I used for my application. I have to send a picture in. Anyway, so this is me at my birthday dinner with my family at County Line. My mom just really wanted to take a picture of me, guess it's cuz I'm so darn photogenic.

Happy Birthday To Me!! Well it's officially my birthday, I'm not 22 until 3:03 am but by the time most of you read this it will be past that time for sure. I've been celebrating since Thursday and I've been having a blast. Thursday night I went out with my girls and had me a good ole time. Amazing! Then Friday my mom came in town and we hung out for the day and then late last night my friend Chelsey & Heather came into town and we went out. Today we went shopping, ate at Spanky's and cooked out at the house. Then after dinner we played some games, they were fun. So far I've gotten a new outfit, 3 pairs of shoes, 2 belts, and a Target giftcard. All of which I really like. Wahoo for birthdays, I can't believe I'm 22...

Well here's the official shirt...mind you it will be in putty and on a dark brown shirt:) Want one? Let me know by Sunday night. 

This is my fro...I'm considering it as my new look, what do you think? No Jason I will not wear my hair like this to work... 

Okay so here's my tshirt design, would you be interested in one? Because I called the lady today and the tshirt will be made soon, but I need to find out how many. So if you want one leave the size and I will make sure to order you one, the max cost would be 6.50 but the bigger the order the cheaper it gets. Instead of the writing being white, it will be a putty color and the shirt is a dark brown. For those of you that own the midnight tshirt, it will be that color. You have till Sunday night to let me know...

So today I registered for my summer classes, my last two classes at Texas Tech University. Weird. Can you believe it's been 4 years already? I sure can't. So I have 4 months to live it up before I leave this place, what shall I do? I actually made a list of things I wanna go do before I leave Lubbock, some of them many of you wouldn't understand because they are more of childhood memories. So here's the list I've made so far...
1) Go to the science spectrum.
2) Go to Apple Country.
3) Learn to drive a stick.
4) Go to the drive-in.
5) Eat at County Line.
6) Savor those places that don't exist anywhere else like Cilantro's & Bahama Buck's.
7) Go country dancin'.
8) Camping!
9) Go horseback riding.
I'm sure there are many more but for now that's all I can think of. Last night I played bball with Ashley and I had a blast. We played a game of Horse in which she won, but then we played two more rounds "Elephant" and "Kangaroo" and I won both, go me! By the way I suck at bball so how I won is really a mystery to me. I had a blast hanging out over at my neighbors house last night playing bball with the guys and Ashley, not the typical activity for myself. Then I went out with Katie, Spencer & Matt and I had a good ole time with them as well. Life is good, couldn't ask for better. Next weekend my mom and best friend will be in town and I'm so stinkin' excited. Whoa, I'll be 22 in 9days....weird.

This is my friend Ashley's greyhound, this dog can run freakin' fast. I like wanna watch a bunch of them race now...it's seriously incredible. And this dog is amazing, he was so sweet and wanted lots of attention.  

This is us after Jill's shower, we went to Friday's and hung out. I love these girls. I'm so excited for Jill & Tyler. Yay! 

I WENT TO THE PETTING ZOO TODAY!!!!!! And yes that is probably really how excited I am about it, I mean like jump for joy excited. Yes, I am a dork! So here's for the story: Last year everytime me or Emily passed the petting zoo we would call each other out of excitement, but never made it. So the other day I'm driving along and I see the petting zoo so I call Emily...turns out, Emily is going to be in Lubbock on Thursday. TODAY IS THURSDAY, so guess what that means? That's right me & Emily went to the petting zoo! I don't think anyone else could have understood how badly I wanted to go, so it was only right for me to be able to go with her...kind of like God allowed such a great thing to happen. We got to pet them and feed them, and I could have rode a camel had I wanted, but I resisted. There was a camel to ride, then just a regular camel, then a one-humped camel (Camelus Dromedarius), a pot belly pig, a GIANT tortuous, a bunch of goats that lick you lots, 2 llamas, an emu, some cow looking something or anothers, a zebra, wallabies (look like kangaroos to me), a jack rabbit/kangaroos mix looking thing...OH AMAZING! I heart my life! Anyway, I'll post pictures later because I'm going back because my stupid camera was broken, argh!

So I haven't posted in awhile because I don't really feel like anyone but my sister and cousin reads this, and because my life really for the most part only consists of work & school. I have realized recently that I only have 4 mos. till I graduate which is a bit weird to me. It's a lot different than it was when I graduated from high school, now I'm kind of having to figure out something to do with my life. Although I'm still going to pursue further education I really do have to buckle down and figure out what it is I will do with my life. Today I realized that this may be the end of Lubbock, TX for me and this place has so many memories for me. Not only college memories but life long memories of visiting Grandparents and many holidays spent here. Not to say that I won't be back, but I think my sister has only been a back a couple times and it's only been because of me or because of a family death so I don't really feel like I'll be back here...can't decide if it's sad or not. There will be a lot I will miss, but West Texas isn't my flavor especially windy days like yesterday where you can barely stand up. West Texas weather is definately not something I enjoy, I love that one day it was 80 and the very next day it was snowing. Random thoughts for now...

After driving home and seeing cute little cowboys all over the place, I've decided that a city boy with a cowboy's heart who loves the Lord is the most irresistable man alive. I could never live in the country, but something about the cowboy just makes my heart do flips inside. I've always loved men in trucks & guys that play the guitar but then if you take a glimpse at George Strait you'd understand why the cowboy is so cute. Okay now you've got a glimpse into just how nutty I am...maybe it's all part of this country music kick I'm on. I've always loved country and always will, but lately I can't seem to turn it off...sooo good!!! Anyway, I love my life.

I love this quote by Ben Frasier in Blast From the Past, kind of makes me think about God with my life... "im asking you to trust me with out understanding why".

Happy St. Patty's Day!

I hope you're wearing green today, or you deserved to be pinched...thats just the honest truth. Well I drove to Denton yesterday morning, and here's a few things I got from the road.
1) Women should know how to drive a truck before they are allowed to operate one.
2) Truck (18-wheelers) drivers need to pay more attention to the road before the nearly kill someone like me.
3) Cowboys are way cute.
4) How could anyone in the world look at all that God has created and not be directed towards Him? Seriously.
5) If someone pulls up behind you, get over so they can pass you...otherwise you're just a jerk. (i really hate getting stuck behind someone going 15 under and they wont get out of your way)
6) Stay at a constand speed or at least with a mile or two. (some jerk passed me going at lest 10 over me, then i passed him going at least 10 faster then him...at least 5 x's...so annoying!)
Anyway, I got to Denton where I changed then hopped back into the car to head to Tyler. We went to Tyler to surprise me sister for her 26th Birthday, she was surprised thats for sure. It was so wonderful to get to see her, I miss her lots and lots and lots. I bought her the game 'Apples to Apples' so we played it last night which was fun. I think me & my sister laughed nearly the entire game. I had a good time in Tyler, but I definately didn't get to spend enough time with my sister.

Today we drove back to Denton which was tiring, we got stuck in traffic because it was switching from two lanes to one on a highway (dumb construction). I mention to my mom that it would be awesome if an 18-wheeler blocked the left lane so people couldnt keep trying to get ahead of everyone and just wait like the rest of us...and before you know it one does. It was seriously amazing! He pulled over just a little and some wrecker still passed him, so as a truck tried to pass him, he pulled over all the way cutting the truck off...go him! I ran some errands today and here in a little bit I'm going to dinner with my friend Johnny while my parents have some dinner party here. It's been good, but definately short.

Ain't it just like one of us to pick up the phone and call after a couple of drinks
And say "How've you been" and wonderin' that maybe you've been thinkin' 'bout me
And somewhere in the conversation an old familiar invitation always arrives
And I may hate myself in the morning, but I'm gonna love you tonight.

Everyone's known someone that they just can't help but want
And even though they just can't make it work out, well the ones who lingers on.
So once again we wind up in each other's arms, pretending that it's right
And I may hate myself in the morning, but I'm gonna love you tonight.

I know it's wrong,
But it ain't easy moving on.
So why can't two friends remember the good times once again?

Tomorrow when I wake up, I'll be feeling a little guilty, a little sad.
Thinkin' how it used to be before everything went bad.
I guess that's what it is and late night calls like this that we try to find
And I may hate myself in the morning, but I'm gonna love you tonight.
And I may hate myself in the morning,
But I'm gonna love you tonight...

whoa these lyrics are all too familiar to way too many people. how many times have you done something one night and woke up the next day and thought maybe that wasnt my smartest decisions...oh well! lessons learned right?

It's snowing! It's snowing! I'm sitting here in my nice warm house staring out the window watching the snow cocme down. Although its not sticking it's still way beautiful and I'm loving it. Although I would really really enjoy not having to spend my Spring Break indoors. I'd love to be chilling in the hammock with a book in one hand and bahama bucks in the other. I'd rather be wlaking the dog at the park while allowing him to chase the ducks. I'd way rather be able to play frisbee with Lexy & Marzi, but since it's snowing I'll enjoy it while I can. If it would stick I'd really be able to enjoy it, I'd probably be out playing in it. Perhaps dancing in the snow would be really fun...hmm.

My new hair color...actually its lighter now 

Me and three of my kids! Oh how I love my kids, too bad I'm looking a little rought. Marcus, Liz & Brandon...I love you three!!

We stand and lift up our hands
For the joy of the Lord is our strength
We bow down and worship Him now
How great, how awesome is He

Truly, how great how awesome is He? Although my life is sucking it up pretty bad right now I can find hope: For the joy of the Lord is my strength!!! These past couple days have been a little rough for me but God provides me with the strength I need to get through these hard times and he's also provided me with some truly incredible friends. Last night Liz drove out to see me because she knew that I needed to be loved on and it meant the world to me, because by no means is it a short drive and she needed to sleep but she sacrificed her own selfish desires to be there for me...what an angel. And then we grabbed Ali and headed to IHOP so we could all love on each other. Tonight Brandon showed me yet again how wonderful he is when he dropped everything to rescue his dumb "mother" who doesn't know how to change a tire and who was rather stressed out about the situation. Although Brandon had his own troubles to worry about he stopped in his tracks to take care of me. What selfless friends I have. I called Steph crying tonight after getting really stressed out and she just listened then left me tons of really fun and sweet messages on my AIM and that made me smile. Man I seriously have the most incredible friends, and I couldn't ask for any better than them. Brandon, Liz & Steph, the three of you mean the world to me and these past couple of weeks I've learned what true friends really look like I love you three so stinkin' much! I'd run to the end of the earth and back for you...don't ever hesitate to let me take care of y'all like y'all do for me.

More Chris Tomlin for you:

Great is Your faithfulness, oh God
You wrestle with the sinner's heart
You lead us by still waters into mercy
And nothing can keep us apart
YOUR GRACE IS ENOUGH!!! (do we believe those words?)

I think there are so many people hurting right now, it seems that everyone is going through something painful and I feel as if I've been selfish about wanting someone to comfort me when there are tons of people that need my love too. There is some serious heartache going on in the lives of those around me. I've seen my friends cry, I've seen my friends loose sleep to help others, I've seen my friends loose a loved one or a dear friend, I've seen my friends turn to the wrong thing to find a way out, I've seen my friends parents loose their jobs, I've seen the breakups, I've seen the stress & anxiety, I've seen the broken hearts all around me...Lord come down and help us to persevere because only with your strength Lord will we be able to. Lord I pray for everyone that's heart is broken and I pray that you would begin to mend those broken hearts. I pray for the families who are dealing with a loss of some kind whether it be finacially or because of a death, but help those families to get on their feet again and walk in your path.

I leave you with one last Chris Tomlin song:

What can take a dying man and raise him up to life again?
What can heal a wounded soul?
What can make us white as snow?
What can fill the emptiness?
What can mend our brokeness? Brokeness.
Mighty awesome, wonderful is the holy cross
Where the Lamb laid down His life to lift us from the fall
Mighty is the power of the cross
What restores our faith in God?
What reveals the Father's love?
What can lead the wayward home?
What can melt a heart of stone?
What can free the guilty ones?
What can save and overcome? Overcome.
Its a miracle to me, It's still a mystery.
Its a miracle to me, the power of God for those who believe

Well pray for my family please, my Great Uncle or the cousin belows Grandpa died today. I love my cousin a lot and I know how he feels because I was in his spot what seems to me as yesterday. The death is a reminder to me of the own death of my Grandma. I shall be going home Sunday night or Monday morning for the memorial so be praying for that too. I really just wanna be with my cousin and hug him and let him know I love him because he means the world to me. Thanks


me & timothy

went and saw hitch tonight, it was good. i got to hang out with all 5 of my kids at one time...that was wonderful! I got to sit between my two girls and then Matthew was on the other side of Liz. Umm, I heart Lizzie's laugh and when we both start laughing oh it's fun. So I'm proud of myself, I went to the movies by myself...not a normal thing for me, I have such a weird complex about showing up places alone...but I DID IT! Afterwards everyone was going to Taco Bell but I decided to head home, but I didn't tell anyone. I know this is stupid, but sometimes I do that because I wanna know if anyone will actually notice if I'm gone...yes, I have issues. Need to work on that too. But my babies either noticed or they just wanted me to come to IHOP real bad. And although IHOP is my favorite place I decided to be the mother and come home and sleep so that I can wake up for church. I laughed lots in Hitch, it was good! I forget how expensive movies are in Lubbock, tonight was possibly the last time I see a movie for awhile.

now a continuation of last nights post. Steph, what a sweetheart and a girl who is completely running after God's desire for her life and someone who teaches me new things about God nearly everyday. Wow, Steph you amaze me as I've got to see you change over the last couple years. Marcus, that boy directed me to scripture when my heart was in the wrong place...what a stud! Ali, the girl gives me insight to the new things God is teaching her everyday. Matthew, his desire to see the true meaning of the scripture encourages me. I know there are still many more of you that I can say great things about and in time I will. I love you all so very much especially my 5 little childrens: Lizzie, Brandon, Ali, Matthew & Marcus!!!