Little Grandma Update...

My Grandma has been moved out of the hospital and into Carillon's. She has been taking off the IV's and the doctor says she has about 24-48hrs. remaining in her life here on earth. I'm not so sure I believe that because they told us that about my Grandma Gee and she lived for a while longer. But it would be good if Grandma passed on. My sister can travel better now than she will be able to in a month or even after that. With little Ellie coming this probably would be the best time for this to happen. Although, it would be great if Grandma could see her first Grandbaby. I'm doing pretty good right now, occasionally I'll shed a few tears. It's exciting that Grandma gets to join the rest of my dearly loved ones soon, and she gets to be with Jesus. But I'll miss her here on earth. I think one of the biggest heartaches that comes with death is holidays, I'm sure all of you that have lost someone realize how hard that is. But with the holidays just around the corner it seems to add a little sense of pain. It's weird to think that in a month I'll be celebrating Christ's birth with my family and my Grandma won't be here. Weird. I mean, really really really weird. I am trying to look at this all so positively, and what really helps is knowing that in a little over a month we will have a new addition to our family. So here's my weekend/week at a glance. Tonight pick up Heather from the airport, tomorrow drive to Tyler, Sunday baby shower in Tyler then sometime Sunday night head back to Denton. Monday morning head to Lubbock with Heather. Then that part is kind of fuzzy as of now, if Grandma does die I may be there all week if not I may return Wednesday to spend Thanksgiving in Tyler then perhaps back to Lubbock. Who knows at this point. So pray for our family as we will be doing lots of traveling over this next week or so and also for the death of our Grandma. Thanks!!

Okay, so yesterday me & Nikki went on a shoe shopping excursion and this my friends is how the little event ended. Go ahead guess which shoe is mine... 

Nothing like driving out to Forestburg and finding the best street sign in all of Texas, 'Seldom Seen Rd' and thats definately the ghost of Nikki walking near the sign... 

Nothing too much going on in my life still, things are sweet though. We went dancing last night at Red River something or another in Dallas, it was a good ole time. Nothing like a long night of lots and lots of country music. I learned that I can't dance with guys my height or shorter, its useless to try even. So yet another reason I like tall cowboys, it just works for me. I had a blast last night. And tonight we went out to a town called, "Forrestburg" to enjoy a campfire with hot dogs and smores. Plus we hiked up this hill to watch the sun set, it was incredible. I have pictures so perhaps I'll post them later.This morning I was suppose to go decorate cakes with Cindy, but she got a wedding cake last minute and it didn't end up working out. But hopefully soon I'll get a chance to go learn to decorate cakes and before you know it I'll be decorating cakes. Maybe I can have my own little side business. Tonight as we were driving back from BFE we decided that we needed to take a road trip soon. So in January when life calms down I think we'll head out. But first we must buy a pair of cowboy boots, I know that sounds random but it will make sense when we actually make the trip. Man Shannon, Nikki & Shauna are great!! This week I'm subbing for a resource class at a middle school, kind of nervous about it but whatever. Friday night Heather flies in then Saturday we head to Tyler. I am possibly heading to Lubbock on Monday then Thanksgiving in Tyler. Thanksgiving week shall be busy, but it will be good too. Anyway, I'm tired I'm going to bed...lata friends!

So my Grandma is in the hospital with infections in her skin and blood. She has leukemia for all you who need to be clued in. But thus far it hasn't really hit me, I'm kind of numb to it all. I've experienced a lot of family death and I'm not so sure I really want to experience another one. But at the same time I know I can handle it just as I handle the other 4. My Papaw, which is my Grandma's spouse died in April of 1993 infact the day before my 10th birthday. My Granddad proceeded to die the following summer from a sudden heart attack. My Uncle Toot died September of 2001 and my GeeMa died October of 2003. Pray for my Grandma, for her health. She doesn't so much have an immune system hence the two infections. And honestly, pray for her death, that we her family will be prepared as well as herself. My sister is due in January and it would be nice for my Grandma to experience having her first grandchild, but thats Lord willing. I know its hard for my sister and cousin perhaps to realize that death really seems a good alternative maybe, but me I say lets get this thing over with. My Granddad was the only one that died a quick death and the other 3 had these drawn out deaths, and they are hard...real hard. So thats why I ask that we are all prepared for it, no matter when it is. Pray that I won't stay numb, and that I will allow my emotions to play out. Losing my Grandma Gee was the hardest thing I've ever gone through and now I'm just numb to the very thought of my Grandma being sick. So prayer is good.

Pray for me, I've had many challenges in the past month or so. And I need muchos prayers. Thus far in my move here I've only had one close friend to share my deepest thoughts with. I love her much and cherish her friendship, its easy to share my life with her since I've known her for like 12 years, but I also want new friendships. And not just these see yah next weekend friendships. I wanna be built up and have fellowship with these people. I wanna share my life with them and have them share their life with me. The only other person I really get to talk to about my life on a regular basis lives 3 1/2 hours away, but I do cherish his friendship. He is always there for me and praying for me, and I love that about him. I cherish my friends dearly, but I just want to grow more intimate with my singles group. I want that accountability and genuine fellowship. I'm really starting to get to know people and I love them dearly. But now I wanna go deeper. Tomorrow night I'm meeting with Diane for dinner to talk and go over some stuff, so I'm stoked about that. So just pray for me please.

Okay, I think thats a good update for now! Have a tremendous week! And GO TECH! 56-17 is AMAZING!!

How old are you?? Neat little trick, I tried it several ways and it still came out right every time. Too bad thought I really don't like to have chocolate that often during a week.

1. First of all, pick the number of times a week that you would like
to have chocolate (more than once but less than 10)

2. Multiply this number by 2 (just to be bold)

3. Add 5

4. Multiply it by 50 -- I'll wait while you get the calculator

5. If you have already had your birthday this year add 1755 ...
If you haven't, add 1754.

6. Now subtract the four digit year that you were born.

You should have a three digit number The first digit of this was your
original number (i.e., how many times you want to have chocolate each
week).

The next two numbers are...

YOUR AGE! (Oh YES, it is!!!!!)

This will only work during the year 2005, so don't be trying it come January.

Okay I stole this from my friend Alexis, but it really got me thinking and my adrenaline running. So I want to hear everyone else's opinion even if it differs from my own. So now take a minute to read this article,
http://www.dailytoreador.com/vnews/display.v/ART/2005/10/27/4360528fd7674?in_archive=1

Now that you have read the article post a comment before proceeding to read the rest of my entry. If you choose to continue to read, please post your comments even if you don't agree with my own. So here goes it...

I definately have strong opinions about all of this and mine deal mostly with Character and Godliness. Christian dating vs. what this girl seems to be talking about. I only guess its not Christian dating from the fact that she defines dating by kissing and havivng sexual relations:)

First the 10 minutes late thing talks about 3 dates in a row or more. And yes I believe that is disrespectful. I understand a one time thing, sometimes there is traffic, etc. But if its continual than he needs to have better time management. Its not that hard to be on time somewhere. Be a man of your word, show up when you said you would. It shows a lot about your character. And amazingly there is a thing called a phone and most of us have cell phones, so if you are caught in traffic or something call...you have no excuse. If its a first date be extremely cautious to not be late. And ladies...be ready early, do not make a guy wait for you. I've actually heard girls say that they don't get ready on time to make him wait, I'm pretty sure that's the dumbest thing I've ever heard.

As far as oversalting and adding ketchup goes, I have no opinion. But undertiping is another sign of perhaps a lack of character. I love going on a date with a guy who knows how to tip well. It's just respectful to leave your waitor/waitress a good tip. Nothing like going on a date and having the guy only tip 5% and having to teach him how to tip.

As far as talking about ex's, I know many of us have been hurt by them and honestly don't really want to say anything positive about them. But may I say from personal experience that people change and who "Bob" was 6 months ago may be totally different than who he is now. We actually learn from our mistakes and how horriable would it be to have that all ruined for us. Tell a close friend how you really feel about Bob but respect Bob around others, he deserves it even if he did treat you like crap. Help him maintain a good reputation. You can always talk about the positive traits Bob had. Plus, bitterness isn't attractive and its not so attractive when you bash someone. Who knows what they would be saying about you later...

Now dating time, I think thats dumb. All of the guys I've dated only lasted a month and with good reason. I knew after a month that they weren't worth my time and that they weren't right for me. Unfortunately I should have realized that from the beginning. But if they only dated someone for 3 months that its good that they aren't wasting time keeping someone around who they won't end up marrying. I personally worry more about those who have dated for a couple years and can't make a commitment or those who have been in several very long relationships. But thats just me.

And split date paying on the first date...I totally agree. He should pay if its a date. If he didn't pay for the first date, then perhaps it wasn't a date at all and he was just wanting to go out as friends. In fact I even think that the first few dates should be paid for by him. Don't be cheap, if you can't afford a nice restraunt don't take the girl to a nice restraunt...take her somewhere you can afford. And girls be respectful and don't order the most expensive meal on the menu. Now for women paying, I think its a great idea to suggest paying. Don't make him always pay. And what great character can be shown when they won't allow you to pay. I have great respect for a friend of mine who makes sure he has money to take a girl out or he won't ask her out at all. He refuses to let a girl pay no matter what. I love that about him, it shows such great character. Oh and guys, please be respectful when the girls chooses to pay. Nothing like the time I paid for my boyfriend and when he normally ordered fairly light he ordered this huge $20 meal, talk about a red flag:)

Like where's waldo, but instead...where's Jana? My friend Russell couldn't find me anywhere. Sometime's I wonder about him...

So my friend, Nikki is the one in the Whoopie Cushion and well we decided to run by Dollar Tree to finish off Shannon's costume...the angel. Anyway, they both own fart machines so of course Nikki had hers with her since she was a giant whoopie cushion. We are walking through the place and she is setting it off occasionally. And as we are standing in line she sets it off and this little girl turns around and looks at her as if she just committed the worst sin of all...Farting in Public. Oh it was hysterical. We had fun with it! The party was fun, I carved a Double T in my pumpkin and I then quickly met 3 Tech grads. I thought there were only 3 of us, but now there are 6. Wahoo, WRECK EM' TECH!!!

Fart Football

An old married couple no sooner hit the pillows when the old man passes gas and says, "Seven Points."

His wife rolls over and says, "What in the world was that?"  The old man replied, "It's fart football."

A few minutes later his wife lets one go and says "Touchdown, tie score."

After about five minutes the old man lets another one go and says, "Aha. I'm ahead 14 to 7."

Not to be outdone the wife rips out another one and says, "Touchdown, tie score."

Five seconds go by and she lets out a little squeaker and says, "Field goal, I lead 17 to 14." Now the pressure is on
the old man.

He refuses to get beaten by a woman, so he strains real hard. Since defeat is totally unacceptable, he gives it
everything he's got, and accidentally poops in bed.

The wife says, "What was that?"

The old man says, "Half time, switch sides."

So, I kind of like shooting stars a lot. And last night I saw my 3rd one ever. I like them because they are fairly rare and when I see one it reminds me of God's love for me.

Last night I went out to a friends house in Sanger and I had a grand ole time. Not only was able to spend time with two very dear friends but I was able to enjoy nature and things I love. Okay, perhaps this will make me sound like a dork, but whatever. I have always and will always be obsessed with houses that are kind of like cabin in the woods type of thing. I don't really know how to explain it...stone masonry, wood, leather couches, etc. The cowboy home perhaps... Then outside...cattle, horses, pooches, an incredible night sky, then a shooting star. I was in my own little heaven.

This weekend I went to visit my sister and I had a good time as always. We did baby stuff and looked for fabric for the baby room. We watched the rather unfortunate Tech vs. Texas game that made all of us Raiders rather ill. But I got to hang out with my sister so that's cool. I really like only being 2 1/2 hours from her, because now I can see her whenever I want. I love her lots!

In Loving Memory of GeeMa!!! 10/18/03  

Okay, I was told I need to post so here it is. I don't have much to say, life is good. No particular reason, well Jesus because with Him everything is good even when its not so good. Last week I was sick all week, stupid allergies. I am just now getting over them and well it sucks, nothing like having those coughs that you can't really fully cough...do you get what I'm saying? Anyway. I only subbed one day last week and it was Friday for Pre-K, I was late because I slept through my alarm. The day wasn't too bad, I always have a little devil in my class...every class has one. Friday night I went to the beginning of Singles Retreat. It was good, although I was very spacey because of the cold. Stayed around and played Apples to Apples with my new friends then came home and crashed. I woke up bright and early on Saturday morning to attend Day 2 of Singles Retreatin'. Retreat was good, God is good. Played cheesey kids games, but had a blast. Saturday night I was suppose to babysit Caleb which I was excited about because I was gonna have the best date of my life plus I was getting to see a movie no one else would go see with me. But instead I got to hang out with my best friend, Chelsey and eat at my favorite restraunt, Bennigan's. I'm excited because me & Chels are starting a bible study together this week...wahoo! Sunday morning I went to church, but left right afterwards because my snotty nosed self was a little beat. I spent all day Sunday shopping with Chels. Then headed to church Sunday night, I love Tommy Nelson by the way. After church I headed to get dinner then decided I wanted to eat with people so I called Brian and joined the group at El Guapo. I came home and watched Extreme Makeover Home Edition and it was good. Got ready early today and was stoked to be making it early to work, but then I got pulled over for rolling a stop sign. Stupid cops!! I subbed for 2nd graders today and I decided it would be a good day no matter what and I had fun. I did have to send one kid to the office, but after losing him it really was a good day:) Talked to a very dear friend after work for a long while and it was good, real good. He challenged me with some scriptures so I had an enjoyeable time looking up some stuff. Talked to another really good friend tonight which was incredible. And then I just found out that two dear friends of mine are coming in town this weekend and I'll be gone and I am very sad. But on a bright note, I am going to Tyler to see my sister and to go with Rachel to the football game. Anyway, thats my life...I'll try to update this week...but really I don't find my life interesting so its sometimes hard for me to post.

They call me "Whiskers" because I'm curious like a cat...

Okay, so shouldn't this say...if you consume 3 or more alcoholic bevarages a day then contact your local AA. I wouldn't think it would be in any way healthy for any human to consume 3 or more alocoholic beverages daily with out saying they have a problem. But thats just me...
 

So from the same place I found the boyfriend pillow, I bring you the butt face towel. I'm pretty sure me & my sister use to call each other butt face. So here's the question I ask myself...exactly how would you use this towel...hang the white over your face and its actually long enough for the butt part to fall over your butt then you get to show off full frontal:) Because I am highly confused how a towel would even begin to work with butt in back and face in front. Anybody? I keep trying to wrap myself up it in visually, and I personally would have one word missing no matter how I try it. Meanwhile, the guy behind the towel is mighty hot...can I order me one of those?! 

Three Wishes...

Holy moly, this is an incredible show. Everytime I watch it my eyes fill with tears and soon those tears turn to deep sobbing. It's incredible to watch Amy Grant let wishes come true for a few select people. While yes it seems unfair to the other thousands that aren't being helped, but its neat to see a difference being made in peoples lives. Tonight I watched both last weeks show and this weeks and there were two wishes that I just absolutely loved.

First, this little 8-year-old girl who had suffered a brain tumor. Her wish was this: "my wish is to help other kids get better." This little girl had a lot of faith in God, and it impressed me. After talking of her tumor she said, "a lot of people prayed for me and I think that really helped me." Then at the end of the show she asked everyone to take a moment to pray for all of the sick people. This little girl had such a heart for other people, sad that she is 8 and has that big of a heart for people and most of us can't say the same for ourselves. She went with Amy Grant to the hospital and delivered toys to all these little kids, then they threw a birthday party for a little boy with leukemia. At his party his super hero, Superman showed up. Then at the end of the show they had a free concert, but the community was asked to bring childrens book to help the hospital. And lastly they gave this girl's doctor $10,000 to provide care for all the children. All this occured because one little girl wanted to help other kids feel better. How incredible!

The second story was of an incredible family of 7. The father had gotten brain cancer and half of his body was paralyzed and he was told he didn't have long to live. The family had wished for him to be able to enjoy the last part of his life and that they just wanted to see him smile and laugh again. So they wanted to throw him a big reunion of friends. The dad wanted to make sure that his family was taken care of when he was gone. He made a video for the son where he gave the son a SUV and told him he would need it to take care of the family. Then he left his four daughters necklaces to wear at their weddings for its every fathers dream to see their daughters walk downt he aisle. So Amy Grant and her crew put together a family reunion. They gave the husband a nice garden in the backyard to enjoy with his family for now. Then at the end they blew the top off with full rides to college for the mother and all 5 children plus paying off the mortgage on their home. Hearing this lady talk about her husband amazed me, the way she loved him and how living with out him seemed impossible. She was most worried about being able to provide for her family when he was gone and Amy Grant provided that for her. Their faith in God made the story even more sweet. To see that he still prays and is thankful for every day. He thanks God every day for letting him live another day. I think we often forget to live each day to its fullest not knowing if it could be our last or thanking God for the day he's given us.

These stories are a sweet reminder of Gods love for his people. And especially a great reminder to those of us who have pretty great lives and these people whose lives are falling apart really and truly have hope. And they haven't at all lost faith. They live every day just the way we should...to its fullest. So make sure you make the best of today. I love you all!

"I believe that nothing that happens to me is meaningless, and that it is good for us all that it should be so, even if it runs counter to our own wishes. As I see it, I'm here for some purpose, and I only hope I may fulfill it. In the light of the great purpose all our privations and disappointments are trivial." -Dietrich Bonhoeffer

"We are made for God, and nothing less will really satisfy us." -Brennan Manning

"We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience." -Pierre Teilhard de Chardin

"Graces tell us that we are accepted just as we are. We may not be the kind of people we want to be, we may be a long way from our goals, we may have more failures than achievements, we may not be wealthy or powerful or spiritual, we may not even be happy, but we are nonetheless accepted by God, held in His hands." -McCullough

"When we allow God the privilege of shaping our lives, we discover new depths of purpose and meaning. What a joyful thought to realize you are a chosen vessel for God-perfectly suited for His use." -Joni Eareckson Tada

Thats all. I have nothing to say really, these quotes really sum it all up for me.

So this is for all those people who are way too lonely. I saw this and I couldn't stop laughing...a boyfriend pillow. Can you imagine walking into your friends place and seeing hte boyfriend pillow laying in their bed? Haha. Okay, I'm easily amused!! 

So tonight I had the sudden urge to dye my hair on my own. Perhaps this could not be the best of situations, but I did it anyway. Mom said there was a box downstairs but it might not be the right color. So I grab the box and its pretty much perfect. So I dye my hair this brown color, really pretty I might add. Then I get the blonde highlighting kit out and I start adding my blonde, not as easy as one would think probably a lot having to do with the fact that my hair is frizzing and the blonde isnt staying where it should, etc. So me & mom get this brilliant idea to just go ahead and brush it in instead of using this little "magical" wand they give us. So we do. I take my shower and go to my room to let it dry, and hour later I go to the restroom and look in the mirror to see that my hair is red and blonde. When I got carried away with brushing my hair I think the blonde turned the brown red and the blond highlights actually turned blonde. So my hair is kind of a Strawberry Blonde...so tomorrow I will wake up and decide if I like it or if I'm scared. If I'm scared I'm dying my hair dark brown and then in about a month I'll have the blond added in...oh what a dumby I am! And by the way, why can you spell blonde two ways? Blond or Blonde? Sames goes with gray or grey...couldn't we just make up our minds? Anyway, I need to sleep but I'm not tired. But I wake up in 6 hrs to go sub for 4th graders. Short day which means I'm taking a nap tomorrow afternoon while my mom and sister shop in Canton with out me...sad day, very very sad day. I don't get to enjoy the entire Canton baby shopping experience which I'm kind of sad about especially sicne I was the one that was sooooo excited about going and reminded the other two nuts about it. But I have to work tomorrow and Nicole wants to shop in Dallas Saturday, so no Canton for me...but perhaps its for the better. I get to do little baby girl stuff this weekend and I'm stoked. I bought the CUTEST little outfit this week. I love my little Ellie, I can't wait for her to get here.

Okay, I am trying to pick my new hair style/color. I could only find two pictures of me with short hair and they arent very good. But then I have pictures of my hair ranging from blond to red to dark brown...what do u like best?! I need your votes!! 

An insert from the book 'Blue Like Jazz' by Donald Miller:

"I think that the devil has tricked us into thinking so much of biblical theology is story fit for kids. How did we come to think the story of Noah's ark is appropriate for children? Can you imagine a children's book abotu Noah's ark complete with paintings of people gasping in gallons of water, mothers grasping their children while their bodies go flying down white-rapid rivers, the children's tiny head being bashed against rocks or hung up in fallen trees? I don't think a children's book like that would sell many copies."

Wow! As I read this little insert pictures of Hurricane Katrina flew through my mind. I saw pictures of women dead in the water clinging to their babies. I saw a picture of a pregnant lady laying dead on the side of the road. I saw all those images that are imbedded in my head now...people screaming for help, and all the while this ark floating by not helping anyone. Do not at all take this as me relating the Hurrianes to God's doing with the flood. But now as I think about Noah's Ark and the story of such events, its more than just a man building a boat getting his family and 2 of every kind on a boat to be safe. I see what went on outside of the boat. Okay, anyway...I am going to continue reading some more for tonight. And I suggest Blue Like Jazz as a good to pick up and read.

A paper about Jesus Christ that I wrote when I was 13-years-old. It makes me laugh a little, but I was a wise kid too...mind you I am not fixing any of the mistakes because that makes it even more funny.

Jesus Christ is the world's greatest leader and he has done the most incredible things. Not one man on the faec of the earth could be better than him. Billy Graham is a great leader, but not as good as Jesus.
How many people were born in a manger and had wiseman and shepards come to worship you? Not one person that I could think of was born as the son of God. At the age of 12 he was already entered into so many hearts. He was with many people walking home from the Feast of the Passover by each of their sides. He is so wonderful that he is with everyone all the time. Can you walk beside each of your friends, can you be with each friend at the same time but at different places? I don't think so, not even a chance. Jesus wasn't baptized until the age of 31. His cousin, John the Baptist, baptized him in the Jordan River. Being baptized is a way to show that you want to go to Heaven and live your life eternally because God gave his only son so that we could be loved in Heaven instead of burn in Hell. "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son that whoever so believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life," John 3:16. God loves each and every one of us so much that he gave his son to be beat and hung.
After his baptism he went aroudn the world to share the good news. He told people to treat others as they wanted to be treated, put God's will first, trust God to care for you day and night, wherever you are, and to live a perfect life, and to live a perfect life because God is perfect. If someone says that you are ugly, annoying, pig headed, rude, or says that harsh words "I hate you," and you don't like it, well think about that when you say something rude like dork it hurts their feelings just as it would hurt yours if they said it to you. God is before anyone so put him first, friends, siblings, pupils, adults, parents, relatives, teachers, coaches and peers before yourself. Then after you have put God first, and others second you can put yourself last. God loves you so much that he knows how many hairs that are on your head, who you will marry, and each and every secret that you don't want anyone to know he knows. Why would God make you if he didn't love you. You will always be beauiful in God's eyes no matter what Suzy or Bobby thinks! He wants you to live a wonderful life because all things are possible with Christ in your life. He had his twelve apostles which were his helpers or assistants to go and do as he did by teaching, preaching, and healing the sick. The twelve left and did as Jesus wanted them to. One day long ago a mob of people came to Jesus to be fed because they had no food so Jesus preached to them all day and then he asked the twelve to go find food. All they could find was 5 rolls and 2 fish. He fed over 500 people with just 5 rolls and 2 fish. Jesus had the most accomplishments anybody could ever have.
You might be familiar with the phrase the Lords Supper. But if you don't know what it is, it is when Christian's take his body and eat it and then taking his blood and drink it. He was with the disciples and he took the bread and broke it into little pieces and he said to them take this peice and eat it as if it was my body. Then he passed the wine and told them to drink as if it was his blood, "do this in remembrance of me," he said. Later on they wanted Jesus to be killed so they had to get Pilate's approval, Pilate wouldn't at first but then he gave in and sentenced Hesus. They put Jesus in a purple robe and placed a crown of thorns on his head, they also gave him a speer. This way he looked like a King. Then they made fun of him, and then stoned him to where he was so sore. Then they made him carry his cross to the place where he would die. When the cross was put down at the top of the hill and then they nailed him to the cross. He layed on the cross in tremendous pain for six hours then he died. There is this poster that has someone asking Christ how much he lvoed them and he said this much and spread out his arms and died. He loves us so much that he died for us. That means so much to me and I hope that everybody realizes how important he is.
I hope that I'm not the only person who thinks Jesus is the most unbelieveable man that ever lived. Always remember God loves you and cares about you.

So now I know why I was so horriable in english in college, because I was never taught grammer or how to write a paper. I wasn't corrected at all really...just a few spelling errors. But I had terriable mistakes and definately a few run-on sentences. Maybe my teacher was just being nice. But hey, I loved Jesus.

I officially reside in Denton now. Yesterday morning we packed up my stuff and then headed on our way. Saying goodbye to Lexy was hard just as I figured it would be. I teared up a little but had to control myself. I'm gonna miss her lots. Her & my new friend across the street. Plus my newest friend, Stefanie. The drive was pretty long yesterday, but me & my mom kept ourselves entertained. Last night we unloaded the truck, locked up the trailor and relaxed. Today we unloaded the trailor and put the furniture in my room. Tomorrow I will unload boxes, I'm too warn out today to do anything else. Tomorrow I get to go finish my paperwork at DentonISD and perhaps Tuesday I will start subbing. I'm rather excited about subbing here because I know lots of people here, fun for me. Once I get settled in I will start visiting friends in the area to see how they have been and to hang out. Then I have some friends coming in town next weekend that I wanna see so thats always fun. Next Sunday I shall try out a new church, a singles ministry. I am nervous about doing this alone. But I am anxious about it at the same time. Today I went to my home church to hear my daddy sing a solo. I nearly didn't have anything to wear, I had to go to Target this morning and buy a shirt to wear with some pants. And wore some of my moms shoes. An interesting outfit that I had to throw together rather quickly. All that was unpacked was dress pants & tennis shoes, didnt think that would make for a cute sunday outfit. Anywho. In two weeks I get to go shopping with my mom & sister in Canton for baby stuff, way exciting. I am going to start studying for the GRE this week so I can kind of start to plan my future. I gotta find a good coffee shop, I think I'll try out the one my dear friend Johnny goes to when he's in town. I hope that I start making friends soon, so pray for that if you will. Pray for lots of things actually. I am off to finish the watching the Emmy's and laying in bed...long day!!!

Okay, so I only have 2 days left in Lubbock. Kind of weird. I didn't realize this day would ever come. It's sad that I'm leaving this place, but at the same time so good that it covers the sadness. I really do look forward to living in Denton again. I am anxious to make many new friends while also reconnecting with many old friends. I've been subbing everyday this week and packing at night, or periodically through the day. I am starting to say my goodbyes which is just terriably sad. Last night I had dinner with Steph, I'll miss going to OTB with her and having really good talks. Last night Tory came over and hung out, so that goodbye is over. I'm really really sad about that goodbye too. I was looking forward to become better friends this year. I mean who's to say we can't still be come better friends, we just won't get to hang out. I said goodbyes to a lot of people Sunday morning, but now the next two days are probably going to be full of goodbyes...I'm not ready for them all. Especially saying bye to my best friend & roommate, wow, thats gonna be hard. We already cried at the beginning of the week about it. Lexy, I am going to miss you soooo much. But may the distance not distant us at all. We must visit one another often and talk lots like we do now. Dang, I didn't realize how crappy it was gonna be to have to say "See Ya Later" to you. But we'll make the best of the next two days, for sure. Well tonight I'm eating dinner with Jared and possibly Arielle so I'm excited about that. Then I'll probably hang out with my roommates since Marissa is leaving tomorrow for Austin. I think tomorrow night I'm suppose to go to the movie with Britt, but not sure how that's gonna play itself out. My mom flys in at 8:55 and then Saturday morning we pack up and head out, insanity. If you haven't gotten your goodbye in, then you might wanna stop by Friday because I'll be stuck in the house packing all day. And if you don't care to say bye, then lets this be my bye...peace out!

Sucks is meeting 2 of the coolest guys two weeks ago that live across the street. I really looked forward to getting to know them, although we are going to keep in touch. But still, it was exciting that they lived across the street and stuff. But then on top of that yesterday I met this coolest girl. We clicked immediately and we got to talking during our conference period at work. It was sooo fun! So now we are going to make sure to keep in touch because we really got close, and yes in one day. Go figure I meet 3 really cool people right before I leave. Dumb!

My mom already got the paperwork and stuff for me to get in the Subfinder in Denton, so next week I should get to start subbing. I am hopefully going to go to The Village Sunday, but we'll see it just depends on how time goes by on Saturday with moving. I look forward to seeing my friends in the greater Dallas area, if you are there and I don't have your number make sure to get it to me so we can hang out. Look forward to it! Wahoo for being close to good ole Renee again. And being near my best friend since 7th grade and her amazing 2 year old son! Wow I get to be there for his 3rd birthday, thats sooooo exciting to me. Wow, a tear!

I'm moving home in a week. Yep, a week from today I shall pack up a UHAUL trailor and head to Denton. I'm really excited about leaving Lubbock...that whole Lubbock in my Rearview Mirror really works for me. Four years was plenty of time for me to be in this town. I will miss many things about being here, but for me I know I need to get out of this town. I need to go to a new place and start a new life. I'm excited about being involved in a Single's ministry. I'm excited about being closer to my family, especially now that I am going to be an aunt. But I am sad to leave many of my dear friends. But if we're close friends leaving Lubbock shouldn't change that at all. Well I better get to it, I gotta a lot to do in the next week. A LOT!!!!

My Sister is gonna have a little girl!!!! I get to have a precious little niece named Ellison, we shall call her Ellie...WAHOO for January!

I'm currently vacationing in Tyler which has been rather enjoyable. My sister is starting to show a lot, which is way fun! She finds out Thursday what "it" is, and we're all guessing a girl and even crossing our fingers for it to be a girl. We went to Canton Saturday and it would have been a little more fun had we known what sex the child was because I'm pretty sure we would have bought tons of stuff. My favorite quote and Nicole's too was "I found my prince and I call him daddy", she cried and well to be honest I teared up too...but no one saw mine. I've been really teary eyed this past week, it's almost pathetic. I must have needed to cry, it sure has been some time. Wednesday night I teared up reading about The Haven, yah thats just pathetic. I've done plenty of crying about the Hurricane Disaster, I think nearly everytime I hear something about it or see someone from it I start to get really teary eyed. Thursday night I watched the news and cried through the entire thing. Then on my way to Tyler I kept seeing bus loads of people from it and I'd get teary eyed. Then Sunday morning I would see people at church and I'd get all teary eyed. I must just be a ball of emotions ready to burst. I haven't really let out any sobs yet, but I bet I could. My heart is really feeling this disaster business. I think I will volunteer once I get back to Lubbock. I would love to stay and volunteer here, but I can't just move to Tyler for a couple weeks although I would love to be around my sister for that time. I did make my sister go through her closet though, so she can take lots of clothes to the Red Cross place. I made curtains this weekend, it was challenging but fun. Tomorrow I have a meeting with the Marriage & Family Minister at Green Acres Baptist Church and I am really stoked about it. I am meeting with him to talk to him about schools, job oppurtunities and just any questions I have about my future. I am meeting with a guy from Denton Bible on Thursday about the same stuff, so its fun getting my foot in the door. I get to go to the dentist, orthodontist and possibly even the oral surgeon while I'm on my "vacation" if you will. Perhaps I should just go ahead and hit up all the other doctors I can think of.

Please pray for me as I have recently been really discouraged about my future. I know God has big things in store for me, but for some reason I am starting to feel really unsure about the future path I though I was going to take. I got a job offer today to be a childrens director at a church in Cedar Park, which does sound like an amazing oppurtunity. But if I am suppose to start my Masters program in the fall then I can't take the job. I want to find a job wherever I choose to go to school so that I can go to school and work full tiem at the same time. Sounds a bit insane, but if I don't work full time I won't be able to afford my schooling. Wouldnt it be nice to find a job that would pay for my masters progmram. Please pray for me that i wont be discouraged and that I would find a job.

well i've moved. it was actually kind of an amazing thing. you were probably all very lost after the last post, but now i can explain. my roommate broke up with her boyfriend which was much needed, but he was in a round about way our "landlord". he being the shady person he is, we up and moved. God provided us with a house the 2nd day we looked and we were able to move in on that very day. and mind you this house is amazing. we are paying the same that we were at the old house and its sooo great. the landlord is so nice and its kind of a month to month lease. so this is an amazing deal for all of us, it really is. i love my roommates still, even though we have are little arguments occasionally. but we're best friends so its nice because when we are irritated we can say how we feel and it works out. i wouldn't wanna live with anyone else. turns out the guys across the street are really cool which is good b/c we're really gonna miss John Wade our previous down the street buddy. there are some more college guys two houses down that seem cool too. only sad part is we had to go down to one cat and i think she misses the stinky a lot. she always wants outside now, she needs little stinkums to play with. and i'll admit it, i've fallen in love with cats. one day i want my own, but i'll still have my giant pooch. i'm beginning to see new breeds that are just beautiful, im not closeminded to the "lab" only in me. so i'm going to go see my little autumn tomorrow, shes gonna be soooo big...i'll cry. my sister finds out sept. 8th what the baby is, i can't wait!!!!!!!!!!! i'm gonna be a stinkin' aunt!!!

It's amazing to see answered prayers. Two years from the day the prayers probably started flowing we see an answer and the answer is one we have all been patiently awaiting. The tears in are eyes overwhelm us because its good to see how God has taken over the situation. The joy in our hearts stretches beyond capacity. We had gotten to the point where we couldn't say anything else, and all we could do was pray. But we were almost ready to give up on the prayers too. But we stayed faithful all this time and God has answered our prayers and all is good. I was sooo excited last night that I danced around my house, I haven't done that in forever. Well God is good!!!

i hate that i cant express my mind for if i do then i upset someone or people get mad at me because i'm not always cheery. im sorry but i dont exactly find myself capable of ALWAYS being happy. it is okay for me to have a bad day...I PROMISE!!!!

i get myself in a situation, my friend gives me spiritual advice and in my stubborness i argure all advice with him. every biblical point he makes, i make a selfish psychological argument. then i find myself later doing the same thing with someone else, but in turn i know what that person feels when they are arguing back with me. i get the spiritual stuff, i've heard it all...and i've read a lot. i just choose to ignore it in my own selfish desires. but i know it. so where is it that i let my spiritual mind take over and push aside all of my selfish psychological desires. this may not make sense to anyone but the two people i talked to today, but thats fine...i just wanted to get it off my chest. i feel better. thanks.

It sucks when a friend is telling you of a decision they have made and you know the decision isn't good for them, but there really isn't anything you can do. You are close enough to them to call them out on it and let them know you think they aren't making a good decision, but they aren't listening...not this time. I'm sure I have had plenty of friends tell me that a decision I was amking was unwise and I did it anyway, but it sucks when you can't do anything but watch your friend get hurt. I'm like a mother in the fact that I would do absolutely anything to protect my friends from being hurt even if that meant I had to be hurt. So it really sucks for me when I have to come to this point where there is nothing I can do for my friend to help them make a better decision. I stated my opinions and my concerns and now I must let them live their life. It just sucks because this past year I have made lots of mistakes and I wish my friend could learn from my mistakes and not make them for herself. They have seen the pain I have been through and although some of the stuff I did was mighty fun, I still came to a point of regret and they have seen it all with me and yet they are still making the decision despite that.

So whats been going on in my life? I feel like sharing a lot so you may choose to close the window now...

This past week was amazing as I got to be a part of the birth of my best friends little girl. It's awesome to see the joy this little girl brings to all who come near her. She's by far the most beautiful little baby I've ever seen in my entire life. Her parents love and adore her and seeing the love they have for each other and for their little one is sweet to me. It's good to know that Godly parents are going to raise her to grow up to be a Godly woman one day. Lauren & Josh are going to be amazing parents and I'm excited to see the blessings God has for these 3 as they continue their lives together. It's sweet to see the love Lauren has for little Autumn, and how this love has only grown daily since the day she found out she was pregnant and continues. This brings me to Sunday nights sermon by Tommy Nelson. He was talking about raising our children properly and it made me think of Lauren & Josh and the task they now carry as parents, and knowing that they will do as God has designed is amazing. The scripture was Psalm 127. One of the first things Tommy said was that for their to be a house built by the Lord than the husband must submit to God, so that the wife is able to submit to the husband and with that the children are able to submit to their parents. I look at Lauren & Josh and I see this vividly played out, by no means is Autumn old enough to show submission but I guarantee that Lauren & Josh fulfill these roles and that it will be easy for Autumn to submit to them because they are so in step with the Lord. Something about that is sooooo special to me. Tommy spoke a lot about raising your children properly to be good children and something that stuck out to me was "there is no pain that can overcome the joy of having good children, and there is no joy that can overcome the pain of having bad children". Not to brag on myself or my sister, but it's very true. My parents have been very blessed with very good children and I know that my mom finds peace in that. I don't know what she did, but she raised us the right way. We chose to follow God and we continually follow is path, although I've strayed many times my mom knows I'm headed the right way. I am so proud of the parents Lauren & Josh are going to be to Autumn and I'm stoked that Autumn gets to be raised in a very Godly home. Another couple I look forward to seeing their child be brought up in a Godly home is my very own sister. It's so sweet to see Godly people conceive children for you know that the child is safe in that house. May our generation truly bless the world by raising our children in Godly homes. I could continue on and on about how amazing I think Lauren & Josh are or how amazing my sister & her hubby are. But I don't think I could describe either of these couples highly enough to give them justice for the incredible women & men of God they are. I truly aspire to have a marriage like that. I love you all so much!! Nicole, you always will be my role model and I love you for being the woman you are. I am so thankful that I have you to look up to and to imitate occasionally. I love you so much! Lauren, you are precious and I love you and little Autumn so much. I'm proud of you. It's been great to be a part of your life for so long now, its been amazing to watch you grow into this amazing Godly woman. You amaze me!!

Something else God taught me this weekend is going to him in the proper manner. My pastor back home spoke Sunday morning about the Lord's Supper and coming to the table with a clean heart. He talked about the way Simon Peter, James, John and Judas came to the table and how we need to avoid such things. Nice little conviction for me... So Simon Peter came with a spirit of arrogance thinking he was so much better than some of those other guys, as if he were Godlier or something. I'll admit there has been a time or two that I have thought my own sin wasn't so bad because well so and so wasn't exactly being Godly either. Wow...what was I thinking? Seriously. I need to come to the Lord and ask for forgiveness and not try to weight my sin as less just because I want to make myself feel better about it. It's natural though, is it not? So then there is James & John who came with spiritual ignorance. I'm pretty sure I probably come with spiritual ignorance every time. Wow really, I can't recall the last time I picked up my bible was. Here I sit writing being blatently honest partially not wanting to because I feel as if many of you will judge me as you read this, but I frankly don't care. I would rather be honest than to try to make myself look better just so that people think I'm doing fine. (reason I've recently switched churches). So here I sit Sunday morning ready to go before the Lord with arrogance and spiritual ignorance, lets see if I can go ahead and be like Judas too. So then there is Judas at the table with vengeance. Here he is ready to turn Christ in for what? To make himself look better maybe? I don't know if any of us will really know. But the fact is that Judas stabbed Christ in the back and went away from him. I don't feel as though I really do this to Christ, but who knows. So as I sit there in my seat I realize that I better get my heart right before I take of Christ. My heart is broken now, Christ has caught my attention. I know that I will still struggle but I want to change, I wanna get back on track. I want God to move me.

Then there is my own spiritual awakening. Roommates. So we all know how the roommate thing goes, sometimes its really hard to have them. There are days you come home and you look at the dishes and you just wanna puke because you wonder why the crap no on else seems to ever do the dishes. Maybe even why the trash is never taken out, the kitty litter never emptied, the carpet never vacuumed, peoples crap always left out...but then if you think about it, how many times is it you that didn't take the trash out when it was overflowing? Or you avoided the dishes because you just don't want to do them because you are tired. I thought about it and one time a friend of mine suggested this be a test of marriage. So I think about my house now as if I lived with my husband. And although I am sure I would be irritated that he never did the dishes I would find joy in being able to serve him by cleaning up his dishes. It's funny that when its the one you will be married to you want to serve them the best that you can. So why is it that we have such a hard time serving our roommates in the same manner? Perhaps its the selfish desires of our evil hearts. I wish so badly I could be more like Christ in the fact that he is 100% self-less. He never thinks oh I shall wash the dishes today because hopefully tomorrow they will. Oh wait, he just does it because he loves the other person so much. So here's to me trying harder to be selfless when my selfish desires want to have myself taken care of just as much as I want to serve others. May I be better at serving those around me. And with that today I want to commit to being a better roommate, daughter, sister, friend, employee, and a Godlier woman in general. May I challenge you all to do the dishes for your roommates not because they won't get done unless you do them but because you want to serve them by doing that. I honestly find so much joy in cleaning the house when I know its driving Lexy nuts because I know she is busy with work. I don't care so much about my own room, but something about doing the dishes and taking out the trash and vacuuming is fun for me because I know that Lexy is stressed out enough. I love you Alexis!!!

Now with all that being serious I must share a funny story with you all. Last night I drove out to Euless to see Jon D. and a funny thing happened to me. I got there and he told me where to park and flagged me upstairs to the 3rd floor. I wasn't listening completely as I was trying to park, take my IPOD out, etc. So I hear something about the one on the left. So I get up to the 3rd floor and I walk into the first door on the left. That's right, I just walk in...I always have with Jon plus he just saw me so I know its cool. So I walk in and the first door I see is shut so I turn to my left and I see a bed that looks like Jons old comforter. So I walk in the room and there is some strange guy sitting at his desk and I think to myself, "thats not Jon or Don, who is it?" I continue my journey to find Jon by heading to the kitchen and some woman is standing there cooking..."oh crap, im in some strangers apartment". I turn around and walk out the front door glancing back into the room seeing that the guy has now turned and is faced towards me. I let the door shut thinking it will be quiet since it obviously was when I walked in, but no it slams. So i dart down the hall to the next left. Holy crap, are you kidding me? I was in someones apartment and they didn't even notice. I so could have been shot or something, but nope they didn't even realize I was in their place.

Well sorry this post was so long, but I had a lot on my mind. I love you all, and if you made it this far I'm proud. You should leave a comment so that I know you actually read it all...no really leave a comment, they make me smile. It can be your special way of "serving" me...dang it, there I am with my selfish desires!

kind of frustrated. i need to learn that when i come home its highly unlikely that i will hang out with people my age. i might as well get over the fact that nearly everytime i come home i have all these great plans to see all my friends and it never happens. so why the crap do i do it everytime i come home? from now my home is family time. maybe i'll go out occasionally, but i sure as hell am not making plans again.

"How can you deny God while holding a new born child, it's a miracle" -Grandpa Scott
 

This is me with Precious Autumn Grace Reeves. Isn't she beautiful? She was born 8/8/05 at 4:41pm. She is 6lbs., 13oz, 20in. long. I love her!!! 

This is me & Lexy drinking the picture she gave me. AMAZING! Happy graduation to me! 

So this is me with Lauren, too bad I could pass as pregnant too. Wow, maybe it's time I loose some weight... 

So yesterday at work one of the guys was a little rude to me and I'm not sure if I am hurt by what he said or not. I was sitting there at my desk and he walked up to me to let me know I looked like crap. He didn't say it nearly as nice. So after telling me how bad I looked he decided to insist that I must have a really low self-esteem. Then he continued talking about how I must hate life and my how parts of my life prove that I have a low self-esteem. Then he tells me that I don't deserve to get married and that no man would marry me anyway. Then he tells me that God wouldn't let me have kids because that would be ruining society. This coming from a man who doesn't love the Lord, right...cuz I really think he knows what the Lord wants. Oh irritation was mine. How badly I wanted to just punch him in the face. Praise God I am done with that crappy job come Thursday. Seriously the men at that place can be so rude. I will never like another car dealor for the rest of my life...no seriously. I don't trust them at all and they treat people like crap. What a learning experience that has been.

Now onto something else that's bugging me. I've began to understand exactly why a lot of peopel never go to church. Why go somewhere that you feel you are judged the second you walk through the door? Or feel as if no one cares for you to be there? Or even where some people hate you, perhaps even someone who is helping lead worship? A place where you feel alone amongst 100's of people. A place where you sit alone in the back and only the pastor acknowledges you, which might I say I do love. Even your so called friends don't talk to you. Somedays it's hard for me to want to be a Christian at all. Why is it so hard to find a good church home where you feel you belong? I wish so badly that I could go to Green Acres or Denton Bible, but that's not offered in Lubbock, TX. So I guess if you want you can pray for me to find a place where I feel that I belong. Anyway, thats enough detail. And I am tired so I'm off to bed.

This is the rest of our pets, and this is Domino... 

And this is Thomas... 

And this is Jake at the park, he is laying down you just can't tell in the picture.  

So this is a glimpse of our household. Here lies Stinky in the tub, Sibbie on the edge and Emma peaking over the side. With 6 pets we are always entertained by their odd behavior. And this week we have a guest dog visiting aka we're dog sitting. So needless to say most of are extra time is spent watching these "kids".

Today Lauren had another appointment and little Autumn now weights 6lbs. 3oz. Oh boy, oh boy, I can't wait till she is born. The doctors told her she will be induced August 9th or 11th. So be praying for her. I can't wait to see precious little Autumn. And speaking of babies, I can't wait to see my sisters little "peanut". I got to see her this weekend and she has a tiny pooch, no bigger than my natural pooch. But theres a baby in hers and not mine. So cute.

So I don't really have much to say. I am headed for Dallas this weekend and its going to be a bit of a hectic trip. I fly in tonight then head to Denton, then tomorrow night I get to drive to Willspoint then to Tyler after that. Then from Tyler back to Dallas Sunday, then catch a flight out of there back to here. Insanity I tell you. But I get to see one of my dearest friends get married, wahoo! And I get to see my beautiful pregnant sister, wahoo! Plus I get to see my parents whom I love a lot. So thats all fun.

So in the next 3 days my friend Alexis shall have a little baby girl, Amelia. Then any day now it's possible that Lauren may have a c-section to have precious baby, Autumn. Because of Laurens small size if at any appointment she goes to the doctor feels they need to get the baby for Laurens own health they will. Autumn is growing and is at a healthy enough state to be born early. Lauren has 3 appointments a week so any day I could get called to tell me she was born, how exciting! But there is the possibility that this may not occur for some time now. Autumn isnt "due" till August 22nd. Anyway, I am so excited about all these little babies coming. Especially since I will be an aunt come Janruary. WAHOO!

Stolen from Emily, thanks.

10 bands(musicians) I've been listening to lately
01: the beach boys
02: incubus
03: 50 cent
04: george strait
05: jessica simpson
06: ella fitzgerald
07: howie day
08: gavin degraw
09: martina mcbride
10: coldplay

09 things I look forward to
01: heaven
02: graduation
03: a real job
04: marriage
05: sex
06: being an aunt
07: seeing laurens baby when its born in a month
08: my roommates being back
09: my friends being back in lubbock

8 things I like to wear
01: flip flops
02: comfy shorts
03: my ring
04: chapstick
05: chandelier earrings
06: tshirts
07: jeans
08: socks to bed

07 things that annoy me
01: lubbock drivers
02: skinny people who think they are fat
03: fat people who show too much skin
04: headaches
05: stereotypical sorority girls
06: high pitch voices
07: people who interrupt others when they are talking

06 things I love
01: jesus
02: my family
03: kisses
04: Dr. Pepper
05: margaritas
06: good mexican food

05 things I do everyday
01: poop
02: call my mom
03: play with the cats
04: check my email, blog, xanga, facebook, and myspace
05: wake up/go to sleep

04 people I want to spend more time with
01: lauren & baby autumn
02: mystery man
03: my family
04: sarah crim

03 movies i could watch over and over again
01: simply irresistable
02: super troopers
03: the incredibles

2 of my favorite songs at the moment
01: collide by howie day
02: just a little bit by 50 cent

i made a random trip home today and now i have random things to say:
- my dog is nuts!!! she carries a mouth full of food from her bowl to underneath the dining room table where she spits it out and then eats it piece by piece
- my parents are amazing!!
- my family makes me laugh a lot!
- driving home isn't that bad of a drive
- i can't wait to live in dallas again
- i havent seen the really cool man from seymour in a long time and i saw him today
- i listened to cassettes on the way back
- bowling is so much fun, i dont know why i dont do it more

I just finished reading "90 Minutes in Heaven" by Don Piper, it was a really good book. I don't know exactly how I feel about his actual experience in Heaven. I learned a lot about the power of prayer though, and I don't think I ever realized just how powerful it is. At one point Don is talking about how hard it was for him to eat and it was at that time that I began to understand just what my Grandma was going through when she gave up eating and it made me understand it more. I realize how much her condition sucked and how much pain she was in, and taht at her age it just was too hard to keep on trying to live when she had Heaven to look forward to. This book really taught me a lot about death & dying. It also sparked an interest in me to counsel in the medical field after seeing the depression Don suffered due to his trauma. Anywho, it was a fabulous book and i suggest you read it...I also suggest you grab a kleenex box if you choose to read it, because I cried several times through out the book.

Well, its official I am moved into the new house and out of the old one. I'm so glad I'm done moving and everything is over with. I still have a lot of unpacking to do, but its cool because I love it here. I've got most of the easy stuff done with, but I can't get to some stuff till I hang my shelves and get the book shelf I'm painting back into the house. Then I have a few boxes to unpack that I'm really not looking forward to because we just took everything and dumped it into those boxes because I was in a hurry it get out of my old house. Anyway, so I'm moved now...wahoo! I have the best roommates in the world. Come visit me...

My sisters little peanut...


So it's official, here's proof that I'm going to be an aunt. Look how precious that little Bush is, oh I can't wait to be an aunt. I'm gonna seriously be the world's best aunt, and I will spoil the crap out of that little one. Oh how precious...a tear!

Well I've decided that I'm going to walk for graduation after all because I realized that I am very Tech proud. I am a proud Red Raider! I saw a friend's graduation pictures and something about that black gown and the red tassel that made me just wanna go for it. If I would have graduated in May I wouldn't have walked because the ceremony would have been way too long for me, but August shouldn't be bad and I'm definately pretty proud of myself...I can't believe I survived college. I like that I'm confident that I will do well in my math and english class this summer. Well I just thought I'd let you all know I plan to walk August 6th, wahoo!!!

Okay so I've been told I needed to update, but I don't really know what to talk about. I went home this weekend for my friend Liz's lingerie shower and bachelorette party, it was pretty fun. We went to Dick's Last Resort where pretty much everyone there was celebrating the same thing. Funny thing happened to me there too...we went downstairs because Liz wanted to dance and I was standing there not dancing because I don't dance. And I glance over and see this girl who looks familiar...she keeps staring at me then whispering to her friends and then staring at me some more with these evil glares of hatred...suddenly it clicks 'Michelle Darby'. She hated me in high school because I was friends with her boyfriend, and by hate I mean like wanted me dead kind of hate. Funny how her and Tony aren't together anymore and me & Tony are friends again...haha. She is a prime example of why I hate going back home when I go, I'd rather not see people like her.

The rest of my weekend was spent just hanging out with my family. I helped my dad take the hard-top off his car and I went shopping with my mom. We ate at one of my favorite Mexican restraunts and one of my favorite Italian restraunts. My mom cooked one of my new favorites meals...steak, baked potatoes and sauted mushrooms. YUMMY! My mom is by far the best cook in the entire world. I was suppose to see Britt this weekend but I didn't which kind of sucked and I didn't get to see Chelsey either...and I didn't get to go to DBC either. Oh well, it was a good weekend.

I am trying to pack so that I can move, but I got sick while i was home...thanks to my mom. So everytime I go to pack a box I start wheezing really bad and have to sit down again. This could be a very long packing process. It would help if my room was cleaned out so I could start moving stuff over there and getting that crap out of my way to finish packing...argh! Anyway, thats it for me.

So this is daddy's new miata, isn't it so cute? Man I love it most of the time, but after stalling at intersections I truly hate the car.  

Please be in prayer for my dear friend Lauren. Lauren is expecting a little girl in August, her name is Autumn. Autumn weighs 2lbs. 1 ounce and she's growing strong, but Lauren has already started having contractions. A couple of days ago when she went to the doctors she was having too many contractions so the doctor has put her on medication and she is currently chilling at home gettings lots and lots of rest. Lauren is a busy girl who normally runs around a lot, but this summer she will be spending lots of time resting. Please pray for her, Josh & Autumn as they go through this time. Pray that Lauren will get plenty of rest and that the contractions will become few and far between. Pray that Autumn will continue to grow healthy and strong. Pray for the family as they prepare to move into a new house soon. I would appreciate the prayers for her. I love her dearly and I want to see only the absolute best for her. Thanks!

So I'm reading the book "Captivating" by John & Stasi Elderedge and yesterday I finished the Chapter called "Romanced". Bubble bath, champagne & candles...what better way to be romanced by Jesus than that. My roommate and her boyfriend had just finished going outside for cheese, fruit & wine. I thought about it for a minute and realized how I love summer nights and how romantic that would be for me. Then I realized I had champagne and I had candles and I can never resist the temptation to take a bubble bath so I let Jesus romance me by deciding that surfing the net wasn't nearly as enjoyable as focusing my mind on Christ and spending my free time with Him. I lay there thinking to myself how incredible it is that He loves me as much as He does, and He truly does desire to romance me. He whispers sweet things to me all the time and He sends me glimpses of His beauty that He knows will put a smile on my face. As stated so perfectly in the book: "He knows what takes your breath away, knows what makes your heart beat faster". For me thats usually apart of nature...a sunset, a shooting star, the peacock opening its feathers, a lightning storm...each of those He has sent my way to romance me. Such things truly put a smile on my face. One of the last things I read in the chapter was "Getting time with your Lover is worth whatever it costs" and thats when I realized this past weekend in all that I had to do I took time away from my day to make sure I saw Cody and that hit me hard as I read that. Wow, I was willing to do whatever it cost me to spend time with Cody, but I am not that way with Christ...OUCH! So last night it was Christ who I wanted to be romantic with, it was Christ who whispered sweet nothings to me.

"How beautiful you are, my darling." SOS 1:15

"You are the one that overwhelms his heart with just 'one glance of your eyes' (Song. 4:9b). You are the one he sings over with delight and longs to dance with across mountaintops and ballroom floors (Zeph. 3:17). You are the one who takes his breath away by your beautiful heart that, against all odds, hopes in him. " Captivating, by John & Stasi Elderedge

So after not being able to announce this for a few days now, I can finally say "MY SISTER IS HAVING A BABY!!!!!!" I had to wait for her to tell the family, but now everyone knows so it's all good to go. I'm gonna be an aunt in 9 months, insane! Oh I'm so excited! I'm so happy for my sister & her hubby. And I'm so excited about this baby. 

So this is me and my new roommates...But this is definately 2 years ago. Oh how I love my Lexy & Marzipan!!! 

So this weekend me, Lexy & Marzi hopped into the car and road tripped it to Amarillo. We left early Saturday afternoon to get there so we could hang out with Chris a lot. We had fun in the car, and we definately walked down memory lane and back a couple times...it was good! We got there and we went shopping at a few places, then we went to dinner at Bennigan's. Wahoo! Although, they changed up my favorite meal and it wasn't served on a pretzel but on bread...how dumb! After dinner we went back to the house where I got ready for Brad & Ashley's wedding, she was gorgeous! The wedding was good, I went to the reception but had to leave right after Brad & Ashley got there because I was ready to go be back with the girls. We then ended up going to Midnight Rodeo to meet up with Chris's son, Cody. We had an absolute blast at Midnight, although I didn't dance at all. Marzi wanted me to dance and she was pulling me off my stool when the stool fell over on my toe, OUCH! By the way, today my toe is black and blue and it hurts like no other. After the rodeo, we went to IHOP at 2am and were there till nearly 4am...seriously, a long ole meal. IHOP was full of drama which made it so much fun. Plus we're fun and we have a blast no matter what we're doing. After IHOP we just crashed, we definately didn't have the engery to do anything else. This morning we woke up pretty late, and I went and crawled in bed with Chris & Lexy and we just talked for awhile. Seriously, Chris is one of the most amazing women I've ever met. She reminds me a lot of my own mother so it was nice to get to spend Mother's Day with her. So after laying in Chris's bed for some time we finally got up and got ready...and off to Texas Roadhouse we went for Mother's Day. We wouldn't let Chris pay so I treated everyone to steaks...yummy! We left Amarillo near 4, although NONE of us wanted to leave and Chris & Cody didn't want us to leave either. I seriously could move in with that woman and probably have fun everyday for the rest of my life. Well I had a blast and hanging out with Lexy & Marissa was wonderful and brought back so many memories. We have experienced so much together, and I cherish the friendship I share with both of them. I love you Lexy & Marzi, can't wait for the next road trip.

my life is so boring that i have nothing to post about, and this was on adams blog so i feel like i just want you all to get to know me even better...the last one just didn't do me justice:)

Formalities:
Name: Jana Bush
Born on : April 17th, 1983
Birthplace: Lewisville Hospital...Coppell, TX
Current Location: Lubbock, TX (soon to be in my rearview mirror)
Eye Color: Bright blue
Hair Color: Combo...dash of brown, little blonde here and a lot there.
Height: 5'8"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: anything white, no really: scotish, english...and a little Indian

Personal Info:
Your Weakness: I'm a great pessimist!
Your Fears: being alone, having a tanning bed shut all the way, getting stuck in a walk-in freezer
Your Perfect Pizza: papa johns sausage with garlic sauce...mmm!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: GRADUATE!!!
Your Most Overused Phrase: "my tummy hurts"
Thoughts First Waking Up: snoozing a little longer won't hurt me plus i gotta get back to that tremendous dream
Your Best Physical Feature: my booty
Your Bedtime: umm pretty late, do people have set bedtimes? seriously?
Your Most Missed Memory: running around with lexy...parks, spoons, icing the cake, a tear!
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi i guess.
MacDonalds or Burger King: neither, but thanks for asking...
Single or Group Dates: groups intimidate me and i shy down, im much better in a one-on-one situation
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: i hate tea...
Chocolate or Vanilla: oh vanilla all the way.
Cappuccino or Coffee: french vanilla cappuccino (oh i miss cappy!)
Do you Swear: not me, never...oh wait, i need some soap for my mouth
Do you Sing: yah in my car and at work and all the time, now if your asking if i'm good...thats a big fat NO!
Do you Shower Daily: seems to me as if i do, i seem to always be drying this fro of mine
Have you Been in Love: what i thought was love in 9th grade, haha.
Do you want to go to College: umm, nah...college is way overrated.
Do you want to get Married: umm, need we ask?
Do you belive in yourself: what was my biggest weakness? pessimism perhaps. yah i guess sometimes i do...
Do you get Motion Sickness: if im reading then yes
Do you think you are Attractive: i dont think im ugly...
Are you a Health Freak: not even close
Do you get along with your Parents: most of the time
Do you like Thunderstorms: only when im not alone
Do you play an Instrument: recorder, trying to play my guitar

In the past month have you...
Drank Alcohol: i did celebrate my birthday this month
Smoked: eek, heck no.
Been on Drugs: umm see above
Gone on a Date: hahahahaha
Gone to the Mall: umm yah, im a girl arent i?
Eaten a box of Oreos: well not a whole box, but i have eaten oreos
Eaten Sushi: umm no thanks
Been on Stage: i act like the center of attention all the time, does that count?

Have you...
Been Dumped: oh of course i have
Gone Skinny Dipping: nope
Stolen Anything: i use to be a clepto once upon a time

Have you ever...
Been Drunk: i would say so
Been called a Tease: yah actually
Been Beaten up: threaten but never beaten
Shoplifted: is this the same as that stolen anything question?

Later in Life
How do you want to Die: snoozing
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: umm since i grow up in august, ask me again then.
What country would you most like to Visit: France

What I want in a boy...
Eye Color: doesnt matter
Hair Color: doesnt matter
Short or Long Hair: doesnt matter
Height: 6' or taller
Weight: umm, i dont know how much boys are suppose to weigh.
Build: average or athletic
Best Clothing Style: as long as they look good it doesnt matter to me

Other Crap...
Number of CDs I own:100 or so
Number of DVDs I own: 120
Number of Piercings: 2 (my ears)
Number of Tattoos: zilch
Number of things in my Past I Regret: ive learned to not regret my past

Firsts:
First job: Old Navy
First screen name: chiquitabear
First funeral: Papaw...4th grade I think.
First pet: it was a pom...don't recall its name
First piercing/tattoo: my ears:)
First credit card: Capital One
First real kiss: Justin Keene
First love: oh you know...no one!
First enemy: the michelle's
First favorite musician: Ace of Base
Lasts:
Last car ride: Wal-Mart trip with Justin & Ashley
Last kiss: Nathan, haha
Last movie watched: Van Wilder
Last beverage drank: Mocha Java Shake
Last food consumed: Velvetta Shells
Last time showered: 5 minutes ago
Last CD played: Usher Confessions
Last website visited: myspace...im addicted to that & facebook
Now:
Single or Taken: single!
Birthday: April 17th, 83...I'm 22 now!
Sign: Aries
Siblings: My wonderful sister, Nic-oli
Hair color: the bottle said "Cinnamon Chocolate"
Eye color: blue!
Shoe size: 8-8 1/2
Height: 5'8"

Right now what are you:
Wearing: a towel, haha!
Drinking: nada
Thinking about: getting ready for work, I HEART MY JOB!

So I forgot that I had posted this picture...I posted it so some people could take a vote on if this sshould be the one I used for my application. I have to send a picture in. Anyway, so this is me at my birthday dinner with my family at County Line. My mom just really wanted to take a picture of me, guess it's cuz I'm so darn photogenic.

Happy Birthday To Me!! Well it's officially my birthday, I'm not 22 until 3:03 am but by the time most of you read this it will be past that time for sure. I've been celebrating since Thursday and I've been having a blast. Thursday night I went out with my girls and had me a good ole time. Amazing! Then Friday my mom came in town and we hung out for the day and then late last night my friend Chelsey & Heather came into town and we went out. Today we went shopping, ate at Spanky's and cooked out at the house. Then after dinner we played some games, they were fun. So far I've gotten a new outfit, 3 pairs of shoes, 2 belts, and a Target giftcard. All of which I really like. Wahoo for birthdays, I can't believe I'm 22...

Well here's the official shirt...mind you it will be in putty and on a dark brown shirt:) Want one? Let me know by Sunday night. 

This is my fro...I'm considering it as my new look, what do you think? No Jason I will not wear my hair like this to work... 

Okay so here's my tshirt design, would you be interested in one? Because I called the lady today and the tshirt will be made soon, but I need to find out how many. So if you want one leave the size and I will make sure to order you one, the max cost would be 6.50 but the bigger the order the cheaper it gets. Instead of the writing being white, it will be a putty color and the shirt is a dark brown. For those of you that own the midnight tshirt, it will be that color. You have till Sunday night to let me know...