The Great Date Experiment

I absolutely love my church and wouldn't go anywhere else unless God drug me there. With that being said, the only thing that I don't like is that there is really no marriage enrichment. Being that we are young marrieds we'd love to enrich our marriage now and start developing a healthy marital relationship. Our church provided excellent premarital counseling, but now what? Besides the occasional sermon of course.

I have a mentor relationship with a woman I admire and desire to be more like and that has been such an encouragement for me in my pursuit to be a good wife. Cody doesn't have something like this as of yet. And we don't have anything we can do together either aside from reading the bible together and praying together. We need to get involved in some sort of home group but they are out for summer so we will have to wait for a little bit longer.

I want to be challenged. I want to attend a seminar or a retreat. I want something that really will help enrich our marriage and maybe something that isn't even spiritual. By all means, I do want spiritual enrichment but there are some things in marriage that are simply just a reminder that people are different and we need to learn how to live together. I have been seeking a challenge whether it be just as a wife or as a couple and today I found just that so I encourage you my married friends to be challenged as well.

This is a challenge that lasts six months. The fact that it lasts six months will be extremely beneficial for those of you who have kids and really do have to schedule a date night on the calendar if you want to make it happen. We are still lucky enough to squeeze in at least one a week. This challenge has you set aside for a date a month for six months. We will start our first date in July and work our way through it. Hoping some of you will take this challenge as well and we can share with one another our experiences.

So go...be challenged.

http://www.marriedlifeonline.com/greatdate_np.jsp

Tristan's Two!

Tristan Michael turned 2 on the 17th and we got to celebrate on Saturday!!

Tristan's new fire engine. He loved this so much that when we left for lunch he tried to take it with us. And when we went swimming he wanted to get out of the pool and into the fire truck. Gramma got a great gift!

Lunch at Genghis Grill with a special dessert for the Birthday Boy!

Tristan had fun wearing my sunglasses!

Mmm, Happy 2nd Birthday to Tristan!! He was far more interested in the cars on the cake and not the cake itself.

It took awhile, but he finally started playing in the cake. A DQ ice cream cake!

The first present Tristan opened was his cars and he wasn't all that interested in the other gifts until they were opened and ready to play with.


Tristan playing with his cars and pushing his new lawn mower at the same time. But at least he played with the mower or vacuum as he says. Cody & I gave him the mower!

Grad School

I would just like to announce that Cody has been accepted into grad school at UNT. He will hopefully start school in August if all goes as planned. I am very excited for him in his endeavor to get his Masters degree.

Please be praying for us for the funds to pay for his education as we wish not to take out any loans for this part of his education.

Six Months

This month we celebrated six months of marriage together. Over this past weekend we went to San Antonio for a mini-vacation to celebrate! Cody surprised me with the trip a couple weeks ago and I was excited to get away to spend time together. Our lives have been so hectic, especially lately that this weekend was perfect for us.

Baby B's Arrival

I am excited to report that my newest niece has entered the world. Baby B was born at 12:43 pm weighing 6 lbs 15 oz and 20 1/2 inches long. She is a very beautiful little girl! I have been told that she doesn't have as much hair as her siblings did but still a lot and it's lighter.

I can't wait to get to Tyler to hold Baby B and hopefully by the time I get there I can call her by her name and not by Baby B! Continue to pray for her health especially since there was a minor scare in the beginning! Cody & I are very excited to go visit her on Friday!

Shrub 3's Arrival

This week my sister will be giving birth to her third child and I am beyond sad that I won't be there for the first time. It makes me sad that I won't be there to greet the little one upon their arrival here. I enjoyed getting to be there for both Ellie & Tristan's birth. However, I am very excited that this week I will have a new niece or nephew!! I can't wait to meet them and love on them. When I get there Friday I probably won't want to let go of them.

Ellie's Birth
01/20/2006



Tristan's Birth
06/17/2008


Pray that Baby Bush "Shrub" arrives safely and that mommy & baby are healthy! Cody & I will be traveling to Tyler for the weekend to see Ellie's dance recital and to meet the newest member of the family. Also, pray for me that I won't be too sad about not being there because right now it is really hard for me to imagine not being apart of this.

Weight Loss Frustrations

This is exactly how I feel about it...we both make the changes and he sees immediate results and I see nothing. Not fair.

I'll Be Sore Tomorrow

We started our day off today by doing the Epilepsy Stroll at the Dallas Zoo in honor of Kiersten!


She decided to sleep through a good portion of it and I don't blame her. I would have been asleep too had someone been pushing me around in a stroller. We most definitely enjoyed our time at the zoo and supporting the Epilepsy Foundation of Texas through this event. Next years event will be on April 9th so consider joining us next time for a fun morning at the zoo supporting a great organization and in Kiersten's honor. Praise the Lord for 3 months seizure free!

This afternoon we spent the day raking leaves and pulling weeds. My body is already sore as can be and I am pretty sure getting out of bed tomorrow will be close to impossible. The yard looks significantly better now but will still need a lot of work. Trying to figure out what we want to plant in our flower beds, how to get the tree pruned back so the grass can begin to grow. Lots and lots of work to do still, but a little bit went a long way today.

Abby has something against the weed eater...

New Job

Most of you probably already know this, but for those who don't...I started a new job over Spring Break. It was a very sudden change for me, but one I am very grateful to have made. I was nannying for my best friend so that she could go to school but had started looking for a job to replace that in May. I had applied at a number of places and had not so much as heard anything back.

I found a job posted on Craigslist that was for an Administrative position at a place called Christian Life Ministries. I was far more excited about the organization then the position itself. They helped find sponsors for orphans in Uganda and I thought that would be such a neat ministry to work for. I started my first week in the administrative role and at the end of the week the girl working the orphan side of the program quit and I was offered the full-time position.

This week is my first week as a full-time employee in about two years. It has been a change for sure, but a true blessing! I absolutely love my job and knowing that I get to make a difference in the lives of nearly 1,000 orphans! It has been fun brainstorming ways to better serve our orphans, ways to help with fund raising and different ways to find sponsors. I am so blessed to be in this position!!

Some Changes

I will be making some changes to my blogger account. This account will now be for Cody & I not just myself. It will mostly be used as a way to update friends & family about our life. I have yet to decide if I will change the domain from crazygal4god or not. And I have yet to decide if I want to make my blog private. Not real sure how many people read this anyway so making it private might be the best idea.

In case I choose to make it private you might wanna let me know to add you! (That is if you care to keep up)

Homeowner Blues

I've got the homeowners blues today! I have now lived in my home for a little over 3 years and have had a little bit of a love/hate relationship with it for a good portion of the time. I will say that it has been a great learning experience and a good home for me as a first time home owner. The following complaints or home makeover needs are in no particular order...

Need/Complaint #1&2: The tree in the front yard needs some serious pruning or could even use a complete extraction. It's nice that it's so big but I can't grow grass because of it and the limbs are hanging close to my roof. Mind you, I bought a new roof during the past 3 years so I would hate to have it ruined because of some tree. And about the grass, I desperately want grass in my front yard but nothing seems to like not having any sunshine.

Need/Complaint #3: Shortly after moving into this home it began to shift...and I mean a lot. Funny thing is that the inspector said it was a-okay regarding the foundation which is absolute crap because you can now see where the former owner covered up the cracks. My doors no longer close properly, the back door doesn't stay shut unless it's locked and other random ghetto things have occurred thanks to the foundation.

Need/Complaint #4&5: I desperately desire to have a privacy fence. This has been something I have wanted all along, but now more than ever. With two very social dogs it would be nice to close them in to where they wouldn't bark at every single thing that walked or drove by and I could purge the nasty bushes creating a hint of privacy at the end of my chain link fence. The nasty bushes are a safe haven for a few zillion birds that Abby loves to chase and bark at. If the bushes were gone then Abby would potentially have no reason to bark.

Need/Complaint #6: The master bedroom closet is for an infant and not two adults. So I managed to survive when I was single but it definitely does not have the space for both mine & Cody's stuff.

Need/Complaint #7: After recently replacing the toilet in the guest bathroom our master bathroom toilet decided to go ka-poot too! So it's time to replace yet another toilet...

Now regarding my own inadequacies which make my house even less appealing...

#1: I can't manage to organize the office no matter how badly I may want to. Any advice in this area would be appreciated.

#2: The dishes seem to never be done. I read recently on Ashley Ingram's blog how she cleans through out the week and I was inspired to never go to bed with the dishes undone.

#3: Dog fur...how do you get rid of it? It's seriously EVERYWHERE! It grosses me out to no end, but I can't manage to vacuum it up or brush the dogs enough.

#4: Tacking weeds and growing plants seems like a daunting task that I don't know that I am up for. I tried planting some stuff last year and it all died. However, I did notice that some of it has come back to visit. Thank you Lord for the rain every 3-5 days!

Wordless Wednesday

My Adorable Niece

I'm a Model.

My friend, Lindsey has been doing photo shoots for her wedding photographer for awhile now. At her last big deal she met a local photographer named Lauren Dennard who works for Fairy Tale Photography. She asked her to do a group photo shoot for a workshop she was holding so her and her husband were an engaged couple. Last week Lauren's two brides both had to back out at the last minute to unforeseen circumstances and she desperately needed a bride. Lindsey asked me if I wanted to do it since I was recently married and although hesitant at first decided to do it since I never got any bridals done. I had an absolute blast and here is one photograph per photographer thus far...can't wait to see the rest!!

Couples Dinner

Cody & I have yet to find a small group in our church. We still run around with many of our single friends which there is nothing wrong with, but we have needed some of that couples interaction. We have entered a new time in our lives and we need to be doing life with other people that know what we are going through. Last Sunday I was deeply convicted that it was time we start something up in our home with other couples. We will be having a First Fridays dinner night with other young marrieds in our church as a way to really do life together.

Last night we had our kick off dinner even though it wasn't the first Friday...simply because I couldn't wait until February. There were four couples present last night and we had a really great time! I enjoy very much getting to eat dinner and play a game with everyone. I had the chance to really get to know the wife of a good friend of mine which I am so grateful for. I will say that I am glad I plunged into the dinner party thing before February because I was greatly rewarded with the fellowship that occurred.

Pet Peeve of Mine

I will be honest to say that I hate nothing more than to be in the presence of many women to hear one of them start talking negatively about her husband. It makes me very sad for that man as from that moment on I know nothing good about his character but only that he is lazy, useless, worthless, or whatever other words they feel like uttering about him.

I think it is one thing to call up a best friend who knows the wonderful character of your husband and tell her he's driving you crazy. Because she knows his real character and also she knows you are just being ridiculous. But it is another thing completely to ruin his name in the presence of many women who know nothing about his character.

Proverbs 31:23 "Her husband is respected at the city gate" is a reminder to me that the words that come from my mouth regarding my man should be positive and uplifting words that will gain him respect at the city gate. How dare I destroy his character and his reputation over something silly and stupid or because I am overreacting! May we each praise our husbands among others that they may not know a negative thing about him (even though we all know that none of them are perfect). If you and I are besties feel free to tell me what's upsetting you about your man and lets figure out what the deal is but don't you dare trash him in a group of women some of which you hardly know.

Bible in a Year

How many of us commit every year to read the bible in a year and by the time we make it to Leviticus we've already given up? For the past three New Years I've said I was going to read the bible in a year, but have yet to do it. This year Cody & I decided to commit to spiritual growth in general but would like to incorporate reading the bible in a year. John Piper tweeted about his bible reading plan that leaves five days to catch up--get it here. So we are five days late already but I guess it works out since there are five days to catch up--but we started it last night. This year I hope to blog about our journey through the bible as well as some of the wonderful things I learn through the books I have on the shelf to read this year...For Women Only, The Power of a Praying Wife, and Love & Respect. I'd love your opinions and your insight as I take this journey into spiritual growth alone and with my husband.

Reading Plan Day 1: Matthew 1:1-17, Acts 1:1-11, Psalms 1 and Genesis 1-2

Honestly I have probably read all three of these every year based on my glorious attempts to read the bible in a year. But each time I read something I tend to get something out of it that I didn't before or am reminded yet again of how good our God truly is.

Acts 1:7 reads "He said to them, 'It is not for you to know the times or seasons that the Father has fixed by his own authority.' "

What a beautiful reminder to me that my timing and God's timing are not the same. I am aware the context of this verse is regarding the ascension of Christ which in and of itself is beautiful enough for me. But when I read this last night I could help but be reminded that God has set aside specific times for each of us and knows just what is going to happen in our lives. And that those things really aren't for us to know but to be able to trust in Him is everything. This is difficult for me most of the time, but have recently seen God at work in my life by showing me that his time is perfect and mine is far from it.

Although I have read Genesis 1 & 2 before...I am still reminded of some things and even taught new things as I read it last night. One of my favorite things about Genesis 1 is that God creates the Heavens and the Earth and when he is finished he says that is it good. Then when he creates man he says that it is very good. I love that when God created man he was satisfied enough to say that we were very good--knowing we would be the ones to sin against him. How beautiful!

In Genesis 2:17 God commands Adam not to eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. Although I have heard many times someone say that the fall is not on Eve but on Adam I never really remembered this verse. God commands Adam before Eve was ever created. Eve may have fallen into temptation but where was Adam to step up and say "No Eve--God commanded us not to eat of this tree" I mean I've heard it preached a million times especially recently through pre-marital counseling but to read that and realize that Eve wasn't even around yet--made such a difference to me in my understanding of the role of husband and wife.

What's your thoughts?

Six Christmases

This Christmas was rather eventful as we hopped from Christmas to Christmas. My sister and her family arrived on Wednesday and we enjoyed a nice family fun night eating at Pei Wei and going to Main Event.The kids had so much fun and so did we!

Bowling as a family--Tristan really enjoyed watching but would much rather have thrown the ball down the lane himself. Little guy was able to hold the 6 pound ball!

Uncle Cody is really enjoying his time.

After family fun time Cody & I did our Christmas together. Cody read Luke 2 for us before we started opening Christmas. It was fun to share in this special time together as newly weds. We both got TOMS for Christmas among a number of other things-but the Toms pictures make me laugh the most. Only because Cody copied me.



Our first Christmas together!

On Christmas Eve we drove to Oak Cliff to attend Cody's Uncles Christmas Eve service. It was snowing the entire time so the roads were getting pretty slick. We then had Christmas Eve with his extended family on his moms side then Christmas with his immediate family after they left. We then took a three hour drive back to my parents what normally is only an hour. I really hope we never have to drive in those icy conditions for Christmas again.

Grandma gives all the grandkids teddy bears every year. I am happy to be part of this family tradition. There are even some cousins missing here since they live in China.

These are my new siblings! Christmas Eve with my new family was very enjoyable and I am so blessed to have such great in-laws! Christmas morning was spent with my parents along with my sisters family. Ellie & Tristan were both very excited about Christmas and the gift they got from Santa. (Not that Tristan really understands all that)

Tristan absolutely loved playing with his new basketball goal.

This was my favorite Christmas gift.

The kids loved Tristans new wagon--and Uncle Cody was nice enough to take them for a really long walk in it the day after Christmas.

The day after Christmas we spent most of the day with my family, but ended it eat burgers and doing a White Elephant exchange with his dads side of the family. We had a blast and were proud to take home a fanny bank that farts.

Mema and all of her grandkids! We were truly laughing hysterically by the end of this photo shoot mostly thanks to the farting fanny bank.

On Sunday we spent time back with my family since my Aunt, Uncle & Cousin came in town. It was a great way to end our Christmas celebration...Six Christmases.

Tristan absolutely loved his John Deer 4-wheeler.

Ellie wanted to play her Leapster right next to her Uncle Cody whom she adores.
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Tristan also absolutely adores his Uncle Cody.

Our first Christmas was absolutely amazing! I am so blessed to have married into such a great family. I am also so blessed that Cody fits right in with mine. I am so excited about the many Christmases to come between us. Hope you all had a wonderful Christmas too!

A Legacy of Love

In our wedding we have planned to honor the marriages of our Grandparents as we believe they have set before us a legacy of love. I have lost both sets of my grandparents and Cody has lost his grandfather. There are still days that I get teary eyed thinking about my grandparents and how much I really loved them. I have especially been teary eyed in the past several months as we've discussed how we would honor them in the wedding.

I was still very young when my Papaw died so I don't really remember a lot about him. I remember I always had so much fun at his house. I remember his delicious chocolate ice cream that we ate in the small yellow cups. I remember his brown pillow that lies on my bed now. I know that my Grandma loved this man very much. She continued to love him over the years as she survived him by a good 12 years if not more. That is a legacy of love that we want in our own marriage...a love that lasts forever and ever. A love for someone that can't ever be replaced.

I was also pretty young when my Granddad died as it was only two years after my Papaw. I remember him a little better as I was a little older. I remember picking pecans, stacking dominoes, watching tv and eating popcorn, trips to the apple orchard and science museum, and enjoying many days playing around at the church. But something else I remembered about Granddad was that he was a servant and that he loved and adored his wife. Granddad knew what it meant to love his bride like Christ loved the church. My GeeMa was madly in love with this man and to be honest I am very surprised she survived without him as long as she did. That is a legacy of love that I also hope we can mirror in our marriage.

Codys story about his grandfather and his grandma are his to tell as I don't know him the way he does. But I can tell you that one of our first conversations when we were dating was about our grandparents and how much we loved and cherished the people they were. And how he aspired to be like his Grandfather and I like my Grandma. Hard shoes to fill, but we are willing to try.

Today my second cousin, Pam called my mom to tell her that her dad had passed away suddenly today. Her father, Uncle Roy was my Granddads brother. Roy had RSVPd for the wedding and was excited to be attending and I was excited to see him. I saw him back in April at his wifes funeral and seeing him brought back so many happy memories from my childhood. It was sweet to hear their love story and just know their life together as a married couple. Something about his death has really struck something in me. I guess with me thinking about my Grandparents a lot lately I had been excited to see him at the wedding as he was my Granddads brother. It's weird to me that the wedding is two weeks away and he won't be there. Don't get me wrong I am happy that he is in Heaven, but I guess I thought him being there would be like having a part of my Granddad at the wedding.

Recipes

Last week my mothers friend, Susan, my second mom threw me a wonderful recipe/pounding shower. The ladies brought the non-perishables as well as their favorite recipe as gifts. I have enjoyed cooking the various recipes and love adding to my new recipe box. Susan gave me a recipe box that reads "From the Kitchen of Jana Kitts". I am hoping that you guys can help me out by giving me even more recipes to fill my box with. What's your favorite recipe?

My First Shower

My first shower was two weeks ago and hosted by my best friend and her mother. It was such a sweet time to be surrounded by some of the people that I love most! It was good to see my family, my soon to be family, close family friends and my closest friends. It was such a blessing to be showered with gifts for mine and Cody's journey together. We are very excited about all the great gifts we received and can't wait to use them.

Thank you so much Chelsey & Donna for hosting an awesome first shower. And a thanks to everyone that made it out for the shower. I love each and every one of you.

Engagement

I love this picture! Hillary Wysong is an amazing photographer!

http://www.hillaryannephotography.com/

Bailee Madison

Please watch this little girls video on I Am Second.

http://iamsecond.com/#/seconds/Bailee_Madison/

This little girl melts my heart as she shares about why she is second and what God has done in her life. My prayer is that my own children will know God in such a way at this young of an age.

The Who's

And I am not talking about the Whos' from the Grinch stole Christmas. I am talking about wedding invitations and shower invitations. Who do I invite?

Everyone I have talked to about this says that this is a very difficult process in the wedding planning, but I wanted to see if any of you had any good advice. I started my invite list the day after I got engaged and to this day still add people all the time that I "forgot" about or didn't realize I should invite. Do I invite the people I was once really close with? Former co-workers? Current co-workers? Only those I am closest too? If I invite 5 people from work do I need to invite the other 15? Do I should send a work invitation? If I invite Suzy who is best friend with Lucy then do I invite Lucy even though I don't really talk to Lucy any more? Do I invite Kate because she invited me to her wedding?

What about showers? Do I invite any of my friends to the family and adult showers? Who do I invite to what shower? Do I only invite my good friends to the lingerie shower? Same Suzy vs Lucy story? Ahhh I dunno what to do or who to invite...

Overwhelmed by Unemployment.

I warn you all that I am about to enter a serious soap box and realize my opinions may be a little over exaggerated but I'm thoroughly irritated and uber opinionated at this moment in time. I realize that I am not alone in this unemployment boat and while I often feel sorry for myself, I know that God is going to provide for me and I am okay but at the same time I can't help but battle with a great deal of bitter at times.

I have battled with this unemployment thing for some time now. I have been searching for a job since I graduated with my Masters exactly a year ago. I have worked some part-time jobs to survive, but nothing has been truly beneficial as every month I struggle to make ends meet. Its often funny to me when a friend says "I know what you are going through, I had to look for a job for two months." I just want to say "really 2 months, that must have been so awful!" Meanwhile they lived at home and their parents paid their bills or they had enough money in savings to survive off.

I really try not to be bitter about my current job situation and am always happy for others who find a job, get a promotion and so forth. But sometimes I just can't take it any more. If someone came to me and said "dude i just got a promotion!" I'd be elated! Or even if someone said "man i put in 12 hours today and am beat" I'd respond with I'm sorry your job blows. But "I'm sitting on my butt watching movies at work" and my response is must be nice to have a job. And in my mind I am thinking screw you. I don't mean to be bitter but we are in an economic crisis, be glad you have a job.

Yesterday my friend Corrie wrote to me how she felt about the job hunt and I'm sure some can relate...the job hunt makes me want to rip my own organs out and lay them on the floor and then drive over them. agreed?

I promise to write a more positive blog tomorrow or very soon...

Content

I am trying to learn to be content with where we are now. My sister has often reminded me to just enjoy the engaged process and not focus so much on the countdown. While I am extremely excited about the days left until we get married, I do need to stop and enjoy what we have right now. It's not like I have the chance to be engaged again. I have tried hard to enjoy our engagement over the last few weeks despite my excitement.

Last night as Cody and I went through our "Before You Say I Do" devotional I came across a portion that was convicting for me. "What's your pace of life? Are you hurrying to get the wedding preparations in place or are you taking time to enjoy the process and having fun?" I'm kind of right in the middle...I'm not in a hurry checking items off my list, but I'm sure not enjoying the preparations and the relationship. My mind is set on whats ahead and not whats going on today.

Can't help but make me think of Matthew 6:34 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." So today I will try and commit to thinking about today and not focusing so much on my future.

So I am going to try and enjoy this a little more, I mean...I am only engaged once. Tonight we are going to be Wedding Crashers at a Faux Wedding at the Hilton in Grapevine. We will enjoy be a part of a ceremony and reception with all the perks. Free cocktails and dinner, cake and fireworks. What better way to embrace the engagement with a free date that benefits the wedding planning process? I am excited about our date!

More to come on this same devotion...the scripture used, the convictions had. Being engaged is so humbling for me.

Updates

Dear Blogging Friends...I haven't had a lot of time lately to sit and blog or have I? I still don't really have a job even though for two weeks I worked full-time. So really I have no idea where all the hours in my day are going. Okay actually I'm a bit of a nerd and have spent countless hours playing games on facebook. Don't act like you are above me for I know a good portion of you are playing the same games! Aside from that, I don't really know what to blog about these days...

So today I will just give you an update. I have now been engaged a little over a month and am enjoying the wedding planning. We will be getting married November 21st, 2009! I am more than excited about getting married to Cody and can't wait to start our life as a married couple. Thus far I have ordered my dress as well as the bridesmaid dresses, tuxes ordered, Cody's wedding band purchased, flower girls dress ordered, a few decorations purchased, verbally asked to borrow candy dishes, church booked, preacher, premarital counseling start at the end of August and I think that's it for now. Oh wait...the honeymoon is booked!!! So we are well on our way to planning our perfect little wedding.

For any wedding information please visit our wedding website http://mywedding.com/bushkitts
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My Heart

There are still days that I look down at my ring and get excited all over again. Even though I've bought my dress there are still moments that I can't believe it's really happening.I was never a girl that dreamed much about my wedding and what I would wear and how it would all pan out, but I have very much been a girl who has thought much about marriage.

I have always been anxious to meet my husband and have prayed over him and for him much over the last six years. There were times that I wondered if I would ever meet my husband. A couple years ago as a friend of mine struggled through the beginning of her marriage and would often say marriage wasn't worth it and I should be glad I was single. I never saw it that way though because I didn't see marriage as this wonderful all the time relationship. I knew the realistic nature of the relationship and that there would be tough times. I remember telling her then that I was excited about getting married and fighting because knowing whats on the other side makes it worth it. I realize there will be times that Cody & I aren't happy go lucky and we may fight, but I am excited to do life with him. I can't wait to be married to him!!!

There were times in my life that I honestly thought I'd meet, start dating and marry my husband all with in a years time. Who would have known it would just be nine months?

The Proposal

Friday June 26th was supposed to be game night at Jonathan's place. Cody came to pick me up at 6:30 and told me that we were going to go play a game since I always say he's not creative. We get in the car and there was a heart that read: "The Car. It all starts in the car. The car symbolizes our future. No matter how many times we argue or get irritated with each other this car will take us anywhere we want to go and Baby I am soo excited where its going to take us. Now listen to Brad Paisley "Then" and proceed to the next stop. The Church. I love you!!" I turned my ipod on to Then and enjoyed listening to our song as we drove to the church...

We arrive to the church take a nice scenic walk around the church to find the cross where the 2nd heart was hanging. The front of the heart read: "Stop 1: The Church. The church, what every Godly relationship should be based on first and foremost. From the start my goal for us has been to keep God in the forefront of our relationship. I pray that we would always give him control of anything and everything that we ever go through because I know that by trusting Him, God will get us through any obstacles we may ever face." The back of the heart read: "Task: Read these verses a loud and say a prayer for this relationship, that we may always keep God #1 in our lives. Ephesians 5:21-30; 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 After completing the prayer its time to have a little fun!" I read the verses aloud and then Cody prayed for our relationship. Every time we pray it ends with a kiss and an I love you!! This is the moment that I realized what was going to happen as the scripture read, 'Wives, understand and support your husbands in ways that show your support for Christ...'We then drove off to the next destination...(no lie, I thought we might go to the fountain in Parker Square.)

We arrive at Parker Square and we grab the heart from a park bench then walk down to the fountain. After our very first date we went to this place and sat and talked for awhile so there are memories here for us. As we walked around to the other side I started to wonder if this was going to be the place that he would pop the question. Especially when he ran back to the car to get "something". But don't worry, it was just the frisbee. We sat on the bench in front of the fountain and I read the heart. "Stop 2: The Park. The park symbolizes the fun part of our relationship, one of the biggest reasons why I love you baby is because you love to have fun. Over the past 4 months we have spent a lot of time in the park doing just that, having fun! Whether it be by throwing the frisbee around or just bringing a blanket and looking at the stars. And if you think about it the park is really where we first decided to be boyfriend and girlfriend ;)." After reading the front I turned it to the back for the task, "Just have some fun. Throw the frisbee around for 10 minutes and talk about different experiences we have had at the park. After fun its time for my next favorite thing: FOOD!" (At this point my guess is we are going to a Mexican restaurant and likely to be La Hacienda Ranch unless he turned right out of the parking lot).

As soon as we hopped on 35 I knew we were headed to La Hacienda Ranch. It is by far my favorite Mexican restaurant!! I love to sit outside by the fireplace after I eat there so the next heart was tied on the side of the fireplace. Cody hadn't proposed yet and I love the fireplace and I thought maybe we'd eat there and family or friends might be there so again I thought...surely he will propose here..."Stop 3: La Hacienda Ranch. Ah La Ha, Jana's favorite place in the world to eat! It seems like since I have been dating you my diet has seen a huge increase in Mexican food. To me La Hacienda Ranch represents all of the different dates we have been on. Jana, one of my main goals in this relationship is to make you feel comfortable which ultimately leads to happiness. And what makes you more happy than La Hacienda Ranch Guacamole?? I love you baby!" The task on the back, "Order some chips and guacamole to go and take it to Game Night. After receiving your chips proceed back to your house for dessert!"

As we pull up to the house I noticed red rose petals leading up to the front porch and this is when I realized it's all about to go down. I was a little excited inside to say the least!! We walk up to the porch and there is an ice cream pint that has a heart around it that says "Open Me!" I open the pint and see a ring box so I hand it to Cody and put the lid back on. By the time I turn around Cody is on one knee. He grabs my hand and asks "Jana Lynn Bush, will you marry me?" I think I said yes...He gets up we hug, we kiss, we hug, we kiss, we hug some more and kiss some more. And then finally he places the ring on my hand...its beautiful!!! We go into the house where both of our families and my closest friends are waiting!!!

**Will post pictures later...**

I'm Engaged...

Happy Birthday Tristan!!

Today is Tristan's 1st Birthday! As I began to create the video of Tristan today tears began rolling down my cheeks as I glanced through all the photos I have of my sweet nephew. I forgot how small he was and how big he has become in the past year. He has grown so much!! I am excited for the year ahead of us, but am sad to see his first year has already passed. I made this video as a sweet reminder of the past year--I look forward to making him many more videos over the years!

I absolutely love and adore Tristan and want the best for him. Today I pray that God will protect him and provide for him. I pray that he will come to know the Lord and worship him the way that I do. I pray that he will be healthy and active. I pray that he would love the Lord more than the world. I pray that he would be the best little brother (and protective might I add). I pray that he does well in school and succeeds at everything he does. I pray that he will marry an incredible woman who is chasing after God's own heart. I pray that he will be protected from harm. I look forward to many more birthday celebrations and thank God for the past year.
I can't wait to see the little boy he will blossom into.

Loved

The job hunting process continues to be stressful and at times overwhelming, but ultimately I know God is taking care of me. I have been thoroughly encouraged and loved on by all those around me over the past few weeks. I find great comfort when my friends and family tell me that they are praying for me. Often times it's friends or family I haven't really expected to be praying for me. It truly has been such an encouragement to know that I am surrounded by prayer. It's been a great comfort for me because I know that whatever is to come will have been thoroughly prayed over by many. Thank you so much for all the prayers!!

Job Hunting Blues.

I have decided that job hunting is the most frustrating, exhausting, depressing, discouraging and spiritually trying event that has taken place in my life thus far. I am sure there are other things that suck far more than this...but seriously I hate this more than anything.

I am so tired of endlessly searching for a job. Why the crap did I waste 6 years of my life getting an education? They serve no purpose. The end.

So Proud!

I've previously mentioned how much I love Cody's family so today this post is a tribute to his sister. Carly participated in the regional qualifier for the State Track Meet last week and she did an awesome job!!! Congratulations Carly on successfully placing 1st in both the 3200 & 1600. You are such an amazing athlete!! Excited to see whats to come for you in the future!!!

To Cody...

Dearest Cody...Every day I fall more and more in love with you. After a great weekend of celebrating Mother's Day with our families I can't help but realize just how much I do love you. Enjoy this video that I made for you. I think Brad Paisley did a good job of writing the lyrics of my heart...and I thought I loved you then!

Up & Down

I am pessimist by nature and my mother is an optimist. I have tried very hard over the years to become more like her and to have a more positive outlook on life. There are times that it is much easier for me to do this. I feel very guilty as a believer when I am pessimistic because I feel like I am putting God in a box...a box He does not deserve to be put in.

Yesterday I found out a job that I was excited about starting fell through. I was back to square one and have been feeling very hopeless. I know that God will provide for me a job as well as finances in the meantime. I know that he will provide for me a roommate. I know that there is a reason it did not work out. I know that His plans are better than my own. I know that all things happen for a reason. I know that it will all work out in the end. But...

I cannot seem to help be down on myself. The natural pessimist in me has torn myself to shreds and has grown very frustrated with God. I have shaken my fist at him and cried out to Him. I have wondered what I did wrong. I have been curious to why He would put something in front of me only to take it away. I have asked numerous why questions in my head. And...

I have prayed for peace. I have prayed for comfort. I have prayer for patience. I have prayed that I would find another job. I have prayed that God would place me where he wants me to be. I have prayed for his provision. I have prayed that I would trust Him even though I don't really want to. I have prayed and prayed...I've even prayed an angry prayer. I've asked the why questions and I've thrown my fist at Him in frustration.

As I typed up all of that I caught myself in not thanking God for His provision thus far. I should be thankful that I didn't get the job because His plans are better than my own. I should be thankful that He will take care of me and He will find me a job. I should just be thankful for the needs he provides for me, that I have a roof over my head, a car to drive, clothing to wear, food to eat, clean water to drink and the list goes on and on.

These past two days have been tough and trying for me. My emotions have gone up and down as I go from having peace to being extremely frustrated. I know He will provide for me, but I can't help but worry. I know He has something else in store for me, but I can't help but wonder why this job couldn't have worked out. I grow angry with myself that I can't just trust and be at peace but that I really battle with this as a pessimist.

Thank you Lord for an optimistic mother who leaves me a message that says "sorry about that, but maybe there is something else out there. I'm like you in that I hoped this was the one, but God has something out there for you."

Thank you Lord for a loving boyfriend who wants nothing more than for me to be happy. Who brings me roses and a sweet card to let me know he loves me. Who prays over me and for me regarding the situation. I am so lucky.

Thank you Lord for a supportive family, loving boyfriend and awesome friends. I am so lucky to have a group of people covering me in prayer and encouraging me to not be the pessimist I so naturally become. I am also lucky enough to have the encouragement of Cody's family who I have grown to love as my own, thanks Lindsey, Katie & Ruth!

Enjoying His Family

One of the things that has attracted us most to one another is our love for our families. I am very close to my family and love them with all my heart. I love spending time with them and am very involved in their lives. Cody is this same way with his family.

We have not only fallen in love with one another but we have fallen in love with each others families. We both knew it was love when we saw one another with our families. He met my parents and spent some time with them and then I met his. It was those moments that made us realize just how in love with one another we were.

And now we have both come to a place where we are starting to love each others families. I love that Cody cares about my family and loves them. And I love loving his family as if they were my own family. I am blessed to be loved by his family and am glad that my family loves him.

Me & Cody after Lindsey's Bridal Shower
Grapevine Botanical Gardens

Momma Kitts & the girls...

With the sisters!!
Carly & Katie!


The Female Kitts Cousins.
Katie, Lindsey, Kelsey, Me & Carly.
Haley was hiding from the camera.

With the future Mrs. Lindsey Avery.
We've become such close friends since me & Cody started dating.
I am so lucky to call her a friend.

Jana needs...

INSTRUCTIONS
1. Go to Google.com
2. Including the quotation marks, type in “[YOUR NAME] needs” (in my case, it’s “Jana needs”)
3. Take the top 10 results and post them.

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1. Jana needs a home.
   
2. Jana needs to select 3 properties.
3. Jana needs your help.
4. Jana needs a 30-minute block of time to set up her equipment and do a sound check with the sound engineer at least 90 minutes before the program
5. Jana needs time.
6. Jana needs to get her @$$ back to New York.
7. Jana needs some extra educational services through school.
8. Jana needs to find that peace and soften her anger towards her Father.
9. JANA needs at least version 1.4 of Java®.
10. Jana needs to stand up for herself if she feels someone has said or done that is inappropriate or that crosses a boundary.

What's funny about this to me is that #7 and #10 because they are service plans for a mental health patient of some sort. Wow--simply amazing. This is probably only fascinating to me as a Counselor. The "Essential Life Plan" I found as #10 has been rather entertaining to read over.

He Amazes Me.

Cody treats me so well and I am seriously the luckiest girl in the world. He made sure my birthday was extra special and for that I am truly grateful. He continues to amaze me on a daily basis and I am so thankful for his blessing in my life. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. Yes, after two months I am full confident that I will be spending my life with him. I was fully confident of this after two weeks. Here are some pictures of us over the past month since I last posted.

April Fool's when we pranked our friends at the Mavs Game. We posted on facebook that we were engaged and enjoyed watching it unravel over the hours.

We visited my sister for the weekend and had a blast. Ellie was our photographer.

We spent an evening on the couch taking pictures of our emotions. I've never laughed so hard in my life...you should see his scared face. Wow.

We went to the Rangers game with Cody's cousin and her fiance'.


We celebrated my birthday several times, but this one is at La Hacienda Ranch after church last night. I absolutely love this man!!!

Happy Birthday Cody!!

Happy Birthday Cody! I love you!!

Astonished.

I have recently started dating a guy and couldn't be any happier. I am daily amazed by him and our relationship. When Cody started pursuing me I was a little scared at first since my last relationship was completely not glorifying of Christ and a little heart breaking. I wasn't treated the way I deserved to be treated, but really didn't know how I deserved to be treating. I mean I had an idea in my head of how I felt I should be treated, but I'd never been treated well. Cody has treated me far better than I could ever have imagined. He has assured me when my insecurities have come up because of the past relationship. I truly stand in awe of the way he treats me and often feel it's too good to be true. I can say I'm elated, that it is most definitely true and I can tell that Cody will never stop treating me this way. He truly is one of the greatest blessings.

He has taught me a lot about the way I deserve to be treated and not just by him, but by others as well. In high school I would have had no trouble writing someone off for treating me some way I didn't like, but now I have a hard time walking away from relationships. I have recently found myself having a hard time letting go of a friendship that has for the most part always been a one-way street. I have spent much of my time bending over backwards for this person and trying to gain the same friendship in return. I am hurting myself by trying to remain friends with this person because I am allowing them to continually disappoint me. I love this person and always will and if tomorrow they called me I'd be there for them in a heartbeat, but at the same time...I am done pursuing their friendship. If the last time I saw them was genuinely the last then so be it. I deserve a better friend than that. Am I making the wrong decision?

So while I remain completely heart broken over this friendship, I can't help but cover the heart break with the excitement and happiness that Cody brings me. I am so lucky!

I'll be raw...

When people ask me what I do I always laugh and respond with nothing. I am a substitute teacher who doesn't get enough hours to live off. I randomly dog sit as a mean to make extra money. I have recently started doing temp nanny work as well as working Kids Keepers at church. I don't know how I pay my bills or afford to spend time with my friends. God totally provides for me and I know that it's completely God that makes this work. Sometimes I wonder why this is what I do and why I can't find a full-time job. I probably am not looking hard enough and honestly really don't want to look at all. I'd much rather continue having the flexibility that I have. I want to teach next year, but until then I don't want to do anything.

I have struggled with this a lot since I graduated from college in August 2005. I have no desire to work to be absolutely honest. My heart's desire is to be married and have children at home that I am caring for. I want to be having play dates with friends and their babies. I want to meet with some girls for coffee to talk about Jesus. I want to vacuum the house and put away the dishes. I want to make sure dinner is on the table when my hubby gets home. There are days that I feel like I am living my dream just with out the husband and the kids. I rush from coffee with a friend to lunch with another friend then run to the church to fill out some paperwork then off to coffee with another friend just in time to make it home for dinner with the roommate. I love it--I love the idea of getting to just do life with people and not having to worry about a job. I feel blessed that at times I can run to the rescue of a friend who desperately needs a break from her own children.

I just wrestle with the blessing of getting to enjoy this time that I don't have a full-time job to steal all my time. I think that I am supposed to go find some job and work full-time, but I hate the idea of it. I honestly just want to do life with people and not have to worry about money at all. But the fact of the matter is I just can't keep living like this and I have to do something, but then comes the wrestle of what to do.

I have two degrees: BS in Human Development & Family Studies and a MA in Counseling. I want to teach middle school for a couple years and then do counseling, but until then...what? Nanny? Social Services? Administrative? Secretarial? I have no idea. I'd like to nanny...for the right family. I'd love a social service job...for the right organization. But where is the job that I can love to be at? Do I have to settle for something that I am going to be miserable at? Ugh. My heart is heavy. I don't want a job. I don't feel good enough to do anything. Can I be a teacher? Will I even be any good? Will I even pass the test to get certified? Do I really have to waste more money on taking a test I may fail again? Should I give up my dream to teach and just pursue Social Services? Should I go ahead and try to take my Counseling exam? Should I just say screw it and commit a year to nanny? WHAT DO I DO????????? I can't hear His voice. His he telling me what to do? Am I so far from him that I can't hear his voice? Is he letting me decide on this one? Did he hear me?

And now you know why it's 1:38am and I am blogging instead of sleeping. Now you know that my mind can't seem to slow down. I lay here in my bed listening to these lyrics over and over again..."Come, ye weary, heavy-laden, Lost and ruined by the fall;If you tarry till you’re better,
You will never come at all." I want to rest in His arms and give it all to him. I don't know how many times I've tried to lay it all at his feet only to pick it up again. But here I am again...trying my hardest to truly give it all to Jesus. I don't want it!!!!

Scripture Memory

Spiritual disciplines have been on my heart for awhile now. I think we can all be honest in saying that we could pray more or read the bible more or spend more time alone with God. I am excited to start studying the Spiritual Disciples with my sweet small group girls in about two months. I am excited about accountability groups that are starting too because then we have accountability as we start an in-depth study of the disciplines. I found this video tonight and it makes me feel pathetic for my lack of scripture memory...

Happy Birthday Ellie!

My niece is 3 today! I remember the day I found out that my sister was pregnant like it was just yesterday. I was so excited that I would soon have a niece or nephew. I began praying for her that day and will continue to pray for her throughout her life. When she was born I gave her a card with a prayer that I hope my sister will keep for her so when she is 16 she can see just how much I have loved her. I never want a day to go by that my little niece doesn't know how much I love her. I absolutely love and adore her and want the best for her. I pray that God will protect her nad provide for her. I pray that she will come to know the Lord and worship him the way that I do. I pray that she will be healthy and active. I pray that she would love the Lord more than the world. I pray that she would be the best big sister. I pray that she does well in school. I pray that she will marry an incredible man. I pray that she will be protect from harm. I look forward to many more birthday celebrations and thank God for the three years I've spent with her so far. I can't wait to see the little girl she will blossom into.

I love you so much Ellison Faith and pray God's blessings in your life!! Here's a video of her life thus far, what a blessing she has been to our family!

irresistible.

I will be the first to admit that this will be a very shallow post, but lately I've been thinking about some irresistibles. There are just certain things about males that I can't seem to resist...

A man who loves the Lord passionately
A guy who wears nice smelling cologne
A man who has a sense of style from head to toe
A guy that drives a big truck and not to make up for anything (if you know what I mean)
A guy who can play the guitar
A man with sexy calves, I know it's weird.
A guy with a nice tan and shaved legs (another weird one)
A guy that is taller than 6'1"...
A man who is chivalrous
A guy who loves his family a lot and wants to be involved in their lives

These are not a list of musts--well minus the loving the Lord passionately of course. However, these are just random things that I really find attractive.

Happy Birthday Caleb!!

Happy 6th Birthday Caleb!



It has been such a blessing to watch you grow up over the past six years. You are such an amazing little boy and I love you so much! I am proud of all that you have become!!

not about me

In small group we often remind each other "you are not that important." Maggie reads this to us from her bible often Galations 6:3 NLT "If you think you are too important to help someone, you are only fooling yourself. You are not that important." It really is a great reminder for us that our problems really just aren't that important. I often find myself sharing something in small group and about mid-way through remembering that it's not about me. For example, last night we were sharing with one another ways in which we need to be more a part of the body. I feel a strong conviction to get over myself and my fear of man and meet new people at church. Again I am reminded that it's really not about me.

Sunday night I was talking with a very dear friend of mine and he reminded me of this. He was telling me that when he's not being self-centered he's happy, but often times when it's about himself he can get struck in a rut of depression. He was reflecting on times in which he had been depressed and remembered it was just about him during those times and he was all he was thinking about. Yet when he directs his attention and his thoughts elsewhere he seems to be happy. I heard what he said and partially agreed. Then last night I laid in my bed stressed out about my current situation. I began to weep because of frustration and because of God's provision. I started to think about myself and what I wasn't experiencing and what I was missing out on. I was sulking in selfishness and honestly I became depressed. I thought about what my friend had told me and started thinking about others.

My situation is far from ideal right now and I'd really prefer not to be in it, but if I would think about someone or something bigger than myself I'd soon forget about my problems. Last night I sat in small group listening to the prayer requests of my sisters and realizing that I'd much rather pray for their needs than my own. I'd much rather see them find the job of their dreams, to see their uncles and cousins come to know the Lord, to see their family protected. I'd much rather see the homeless people we talked about with food in their tummy's and coats on their backs. I'd much rather set myself aside to make sure the person alone at church feels welcomed. If for just a minute I'd stop thinking about all my needs and wants and focus on others I'd be much happier and far more satisfied with my own life.

I have another blog all about my situation and how God's provided for me beyond measure. How much I've grown by depending on him. But today...I don't want to focus on me. It's not about me. What's your prayer requests? What stirring in your heart? Let me pray for you! Fell free to email me your prayer requests.

Trashy TV

Am I the only person that watches Desperate Housewives? If I am then I am truly ashamed of myself, but most definately won't stop watching it. Thanks for the addiction Catherine! Every week I grow frustrated with the wives, but this week I felt more frustrated with them than other weeks. You will probably all think I am out of control by the end of this blog but it got me thinking.

These women treat their husbands like absolute dirt. They all have them "whipped" and they most definately wear the pants in the home. I have grown very frustrated with Gabi, Bre and Lynette this season. I actually used to kind of like Gabi, but not at all any more. The three of them frustrate me to no end. It's actually really hard for me to watch them treat their husbands as if they are just some random man. They show them no love and the men are completely submissive to their wives. Whatever she does goes. Yet these men love these women and continue to stay in these abusive relationships. Is this the way society views women? Are we just women on power trips taking the balls away from our men? Sadly I believe this is the way that society sees women which for me is heart breaking.

Biblically speaking my role as a wife is so polar opposite of that relationship displayed each week. But unfortunately I think that there are probably some Christian women out there that do treat their husbands like dirt and totally control their every move. It just breaks my heart that any woman could treat her husband that way. To be so unappreciative of everything he does for her, to care less about how he feels about a situation and to make decisions regardless of his opinion. Each week I think I go away from the episode a little more agitated but also with more appreciation for what husbands do for their wives and how often it probably goes unnoticed. To my friends with husbands, go love on your husband tonight and tell him how much you appreciate all that he does for you and your family. Who am I kidding? I know you all do that already, but why not go do it again. What a sweet reminder it would be to know how appreciate you are. Go watch an episode and you will truly appreciate your adorable husband.

2008 Single Ladies

This is the video I made as a tribute to all my single ladies! I love you all very much and enjoyed all the fun we had in 2008. I look forward to another great year with tons more fun! I love you all very much. Now please enjoy...